
21/09/2024
So many thought I was crazy but my vision was clear. I spoke to the dead and I knew I would have my beautiful home birth experience.
For years I lived in a place of fear, fear of judgment, fear of getting it wrong and not being good enough. This led me down a path of striving and never feeling like I was arriving causing burnout and severe mind chatter.
June 30th 2020 my beautiful nana passed away, I remember all the beautiful things my family was saying about her, the loving, cheeky beautiful women that she was. This made me start wondering, how would I be remembered when I leave this earth? And if today was my last day would I live in regret. You see at this time I still struggled to fully trust myself, living in self doubt and trying to control everything. There were times I felt like something was missing and was living a life of what I felt like I "should" do.
July that year I was in a personal development course that they took us into a meditation to calm the mind, my beautiful nana came through in my vision. She connected with me and started to hold my belly and told me that I was having a baby boy next year.
That Oct we fell pregnant, Jake and I were so happy knowing our lives would be changed forever. Connecting with my belly and baby completely changed my relationship with my body. I fell in love with my body and how powerful we are to create not only life but a complete other organ to support the baby in your body all while keeping you alive also. The more my belly grew the more love I felt for my vessel. This was huge for me as I suffered from body dysmorphia in my adult life.
In December I had a call with a beautiful healer that had just had a homebirth experience and I was in awe of how strong she must have been to do this, not knowing much about this as Australia doesn't encourage this birth. “She asked me why don't you have one?” My response was “ Oh, I can't do that. Maybe for the second child”, she challenged me on that and I started to question why I even said that.
This seed sent me down an empowerment birth quest. I looked into home births, signed up to a course “built to birth, paid for birthing coaches and hired a doula. Very quickly I learnt that society was set up for failure when it came to the birthing mindset and trusting your body for birth.
When I started telling people I was having a home birth I got a lot of resistance. People saying that I was putting myself and my child in danger, that I was crazy and that they were scared for me. This was a challenging time for me as I was still in a mindset of fear of judgment and questioning myself. Of course my main focus was to make sure the baby and myself was safe and that was why I chose a home birth. Statistics show it is safer to have a home birth than in a hospital where interference is encouraged. The most important thing for a mumma is to feel safe for her cervix to soften, for me that was at home.
This experience helped me strengthen my knowing and trust with myself. I had a choice, listen to all the fears around me or feel into my deep trust and knowing in myself. I chose myself and I am so thankful I did.
June 30th 2021, the one year after my nana passed I went into labor. My home birthing experience was the most beautiful experience of my life and my nana was by my side supporting me through this rebirth and transition into motherhood and complete trust in myself and listening to the wisdom of my body.
This experience taught me how much the mind can take over and when we allow yourself to surrender into the body and heart how you can feel so much bliss and abundance. I was able to completely be held by my birthing team and receive all the love in my beautiful home.
Hudson arrived on earthside on the 30th of June 2021 at 6.39am. Hudson means Heart, Mind, Spirit and that birth taught me true power in aligning my heart, mind and spirit. This activation and rebirth is one of the reasons why today I get to help so many women align back to their authentic self and fully trust in themselves, letting go of self doubt, fear and burnout.
Since that day I have built a thriving business helping women connect back with their truth, knowing their power and having the confidence to go after what they truly desire.
I am sharing this because regardless of if you have had a birthing experience or not I believe everyone can relate to a time in their life that they have gone with what society wants us to do, disconnecting from our truth.
I wonder if you can relate to a time when you rejected your intuition or not listen to the wisdom of the body.
I believe that humans have unlimited potential. This is your reminder that you can are the creator, director and writer of your reality. Do you need to rewrite your future?
What is one thing you can do today to help your future self?
Trust, Surrender, Believe