17/03/2025
March is Pregnancy after loss awareness month 🌈
From someone that has experienced recurrent loss , I can say that pregnancy after loss is the happiest & scariest time of your life, almost like a mind game, where you would think that after the first trimester your anxiety disappears. I can tell you it does not!
The anxiety & stress during first trimester is crazy, second guessing yourself if your symptoms suddenly disappear, counting down the days until that next scan or appointment you hear babies heart beat, with constant fear that something is wrong, fearful or the worst because you have been there before, for me over and over again.
For me it wasn’t until after my 20 week scan that my anxiety reduced, but even then I had an anterior placenta so took a bit longer to feel regular movement. Everynight I would eat something sweet or cold to feel my baby move for reassurance. Right up until the days I gave birth, every morning laying in bed feeling her roll, kick, hiccup or even a little shudder. Once I came to hospital for regular monitoring before the birth it was like a wave of relief, I just wanted to meet my baby.
Things that helped me get through included:
💫 Fortnightly scans in first trimester
💫 taking the time to stop and rest from our busy days so I could focus on babies movement
💫 drinking something cold or eating icecream and making sure I could feel at least x 10 movements within the hour every night after 20-24weeks
💫 Having a supportive OB who I could speak to for reassurance & guidance regularly.
I know there are so many women out there that would resonate with my words, I hope in some way this helps, knowing you are not going crazy, but also knowing how to navigate the journey of pregnancy after loss.
For more support is a great place to reach out to.
Xx