03/08/2025
5 days solo in Bali - Bingin
I didn’t realise how tightly I’d been holding everything - until I finally put it down. I’ll be honest taking time to myself felt foreign, a little selfish and a lot confronting.
With my husband away for work, I’m the one holding it all together at home. The constant presence. The anchor. The routine keeper, the comfort giver, the everything. And I wouldn’t change that — but I forgot what it felt like to just be with myself.
It took a couple of days to unwind the tension I didn’t even know I was carrying. The mental noise, the invisible pressure of always being “on” as a mum — it’s heavy.
But somewhere between slow breakfasts, salty swims, and being still with my own thoughts — I found a piece of myself that had been buried under the “doing it all “ and slowly, it started to shift.
I realised — I wasn’t running away from motherhood. I was running toward me.
Every mum deserves time to remember who she is outside of being needed.And I hope every woman who’s feeling pulled in all directions gets a chance to feel this kind of peace.
Now I’m back with my little crew - present , grounded and full. 3 weeks together- no rushing, no juggling- just soaking it all in.
This space has always been a reflection of the season I’m in - and this next one feels different already ✌️
