
13/07/2025
Are you ever afraid that your emotions are just too much? That you don’t want to scare people by the depth of your feelings - Incase they reject or abandon you?
I’ve felt this way for most of life.
But this weekend, I just couldn’t hold it in. I spent most of the weekend crying. I don’t know if it was the fullmoon, or simply time for me to release the walls of the damn within me. I cried so much that my tears turned into sobs, to those ugly tears that you can’t stop, where you end up sucking up your breath - snot dripping from your nose, looking like a hot mess!
It’s been a long time since I cried that much. It’s well overdue. I know my tears are a bridge between the seen and unseen. They speak the words I cannot always say.
Every tear that I kept bottled up inside of me was tension tnat my body was holding. I know that crying is such a deep act of surrender, a softening, an intuitive release that allows healing to begin. This is not a victim mentally, this is compassion, self love and truth.
It’s still scary for me to cry sometimes. I don’t want to be a burden to others, and sometimes I am afraid that I will never stop. But, what I have found to be more true - is that my beautiful friends and my family feel honoured to hold me, and be there for me when the s**t goes down. I am so grateful to them for not rejecting my pain. And I am secretly congratulating myself for allowing my emotions to be seen, and to openly recieve love.
If you’re someone who’s scared of the bigness of your feelings, I hope you can find the courage to share your feelings and reach out for help. (From an actual person too, not from AI. Because we need the human heart connection) If you’re courageous and share your journey, and it will lessen the load, and you won’t feel as lonely.