03/05/2026
MY JOURNEY TO HEALTH AND CLARITY
When I was 16, I got really sick.
It all started with a huge amount of stress and pressure of a lot of things colliding: I was in the midst of some big exams, had 11 assignments on the go for high school, part time jobs to finance my love for travel and photography, my best girl friend was suicidal and I felt like I was the only one she could talk to, my boyfriend at the time didn’t like her for the effect that she had on me, and stuff was going on at home.
In short: I felt like in a pressure cooker! ⚡️
I picked up a virus that formed a lesion in my va**na, that grew bigger and bigger and I couldn’t control it. I was made to put a salve on it, that I didn’t feel good about.
After having a half hour discussion with the specialist who I tried to explain to that my feeling said it wasn’t a good idea to follow her recommendation, I gave in.
I applied it, but had a major reaction to it, that saw me in bed being seriously ill for several months.
My va**na turned into a monstrous war zone that wasn’t only extremely painful to feel, but also looked like many erupted volcanoes or a moon landscape to me when assessing it in the mirror.
I wasn’t able to walk or wee without massive amounts of pain, and my whole immune system shut down in response to all the stress, as the medication they put me on was way too harsh for my system. 😵😱
I couldn’t go to school for most of that time and my mum had to drive me from specialist to specialist to find a way to get back to health.
I was treated like meat, exposed, with open waiting room doors, as they assessed my private parts with a switched-offness towards my feelings or dignity, and I certainly didn’t feel heard or seen. Moreover, they told me that I was one of their worst cases and gave me a ridiculous amount of prescriptions that all just made me feel worse.
I hit a low point where I was sitting on the bathroom floor one night. In massive amounts of pain. Hopeless. Empty. And very confused. 😳
Was this really it? I mean, I always knew that there was way more to life than this. Was I really wrong and there was no way to get better???
And even at that low point, where I started to lose all hope, a part in me watched myself and knew why all of this was happening to me.
It knew that if I was to only take one thing from this, then it was the fact that I now knew how it felt to be seriously ill. ✨
And although I’d never ever wished to have to go through this horrendous and painful experience again - or anyone for that matter - I was thankful for it. It gave me the gift of true understanding for those who are suffering and have lost all hope (to a much greater extent to what I already had previously) - which, I sensed, was priceless. 💕
Around about that time, my best girl friend (who had decided to keep on living after many long chats), gave me a number of a renowned iseotherapist (similar to homeopathy) who lived in the hills of ‘Ober Allgaeu’ (close to where I lived). He successfully used black field microscopy, what’s commonly known as life-blood analysis or ‘Hemaview’ here in Australia, and approached health and wellbeing in a very holistic way.
I grabbed the piece of hope and my mum and I ran with it. And I’m so glad we did!
Within a few short days I was nearly back to normal! 🌸🎉
(And my va**na healed up and lateron birthed two beautiful boys - naturally and with two peaceful water births ).
My mind was blown and curiosity sparked up like dry kindling, which was the beginning of a beautiful warm fire that is still burning bright today!
In those times I realised 3 key things:
🔥1) stress is a killer
🔥2) always listen to your intuition
🔥3) our body mind and spirit are one and the same - When there is a thought, it will create a symptom in the body, if not acknowledged; likewise, a symptom in the body will create certain thoughts and emotions etc - It is all one and we can read, understand and shift things by acknowledging all angles.
Now, nearly 20 years later - 15 of which I've been a therapist and holistic empowerment coach myself - I can only confirm what I came up with then. And I also need to add one more very powerful key realisation which most people (even therapists!) oversee:
🔥4) In order for you to feel fulfilled, clear, confident and on track, you need to embody your spirit. In other words, you need to be truly connected within and have daily practises that assist you in being 100% present and mindful.
Only then you can hold your space without taking stuff on and feeling wiped after seeing certain clients, and it will also ward of sabotage and doubt out of your life, as your energetic field remains strong.
To take this even further, we need to release all shame, guilt and low vibrational emotional states, that we are holding towards ourselves or others, and that keep us trapped in the struggle. This will enable us to fully embody our spirit/ higher self and move through life with so much more ease and grace, despite what’s going on on the outside.
Only when we fully embody our spirit/higher self, we can truly and unapologetically share our gifts and message with the World. ✨✨✨
