My Yawa A man's journey through mental health, depression, substance abuse, anxiety and suicidal ideation.

Recovery is possible and there is light at the end of the tunnel. We are here to tell lived stories and help save lives through lived experience

On the night before we were supposed to be heading away on a cruise with my little girls I had drank so much after a lon...
15/03/2026

On the night before we were supposed to be heading away on a cruise with my little girls I had drank so much after a long weekend that I tripped over our dog and down the stairs snapping my collar bone in half right where it meets my shoulder. I went to emergency in the morning but had to be at the port in Brisbane at lunch time so I didn’t get to see a doctor in time and had to go on the 5 day cruise with no sling or pain management. That was not fun! I could feel it moving the whole time, but I knew at this point that my drinking had become a problem and was affecting those around me but I had booked the cruise for my daughters birthday so we went anyway and I just had to pay in pain. That was last Easter. Still drank straight for another 10 months even though I’d tell myself after every weekend ‘OK this is enough now’ - I didn’t stop, only got worse. Is your drinking affecting those around you? 👧👧

If I was heading out somewhere with friends or to an event I would have pre drinks before the actual pre drinks. So my m...
14/03/2026

If I was heading out somewhere with friends or to an event I would have pre drinks before the actual pre drinks. So my memory of most big social outings is limited due to the amount of alcohol I had consumed beforehand. Sometimes I feel like I lost so much of my life being powerless over Alcohol but I’m lucky to be able to sit here and remember how bad things got and know that the future is bright because alcohol no longer plays a part in my life. It’s taken many attempts but still you just never know, even now, but I have everything crossed that my last dance with alcohol has occurred.

Day 1/10 of how bad my alcoholism got.I was drinking up to and sometimes more than a 1L bottle of Vodka a day. I’d check...
13/03/2026

Day 1/10 of how bad my alcoholism got.
I was drinking up to and sometimes more than a 1L bottle of Vodka a day. I’d check every night to make sure I had enough to start drinking in the morning if I wanted or couldn’t sleep during the night. I would say that sometimes I was probably intoxicated for days at a time until I got the help I so desperately needed. That’s 29.2 standard drinks per day (or more - sometimes less also) but at the peak I was at rock bottom. There was days where my body was giving up and I was just continually vomiting (up to 50 times a day) and was happy to not wake up the next day with how low I was. Sometimes you just don’t know how to get the help you need. First thing was for me was to admit I had a problem and stopped hiding it as a secret to those closest to me. That’s when the recovery started. But it was 6+ months until I was able to get admitted into the mental health ward. Things had to get really bad. If I can do it, you can!!!

When I started My Yawa it was to tell my story to help myself stay accountable and sober but also to inspire others. So ...
12/03/2026

When I started My Yawa it was to tell my story to help myself stay accountable and sober but also to inspire others. So to get messages like this from friends who realised they had a problem and decided to take action and detox and go Sober makes everything worth it. It’s not easy, even yesterday I was in SCUH after a little over 60 days sober. Usually there is a an underlying issue and the drinking is the result of said issue, for me it’s depression. But I can tell you what lifts me, knowing being vulnerable has just not only helped in a small way for someone to get their life back, but a little family get one of their parents back they deserve who had just lost their way like me. If you ever want to talk about going sober I have become a little bit of wealth of knowledge in the area and also happy to give some peer support to friends and those alike.

I’m just going to drop this here. It’s advantageous. Its crazy. It’s a massive dream but this is the direction I see my ...
01/03/2026

I’m just going to drop this here. It’s advantageous. Its crazy. It’s a massive dream but this is the direction I see my ‘My Yawa’ heading. It might take me two years to raise money, find philanthropists and get certain levels of government onboard but here she is. When you’re deemed not sick enough to be taken into SCUH’s Mental Health Ward or they are full we will welcome you with open arms. Alcohol and drug addictions along with mental health, depression, anxiety and detoxing etc. within a certain distance from SCUH so it’s accessible and either extremely affordable, in some cases free, others covered by your private health or others paid, I want to be in the thick of things and in the trenches and save lives. I want us to be called out to the single mum who is struggling with her son trying to overdose or take their life, (along with the government services) I want us to be there for ‘Steve’ who’s lost his job, has the loan for the house and BMW and everything has gotten too much and feels like the only way out is to leave this beautiful earth. I feel sooooo called to purpose. And I want it to be staffed by at least 50% First Nations people and also people with lived experience, I want to save lives, where do you go when you’re feeling so down you want to end things but emergency is too much and too over whelming? Where do you go when you just need 3 or 4 days out of the environment that’s put you in such a bad mental state that you don’t know where to go, you go to My Yawa. Like I said I’ll be looking for people to be apart of the ‘My Yawa Army’ to help raise money to get this facility together. We will need to campaign as a team, there is strength in numbers and we can save lives. TOGETHER as a community, let’s do this!

From my personal experience, only you know when you are ready to commit to going sober and it needs to be for you. Not y...
25/02/2026

From my personal experience, only you know when you are ready to commit to going sober and it needs to be for you. Not your kids, not your marriage,for you!. That’s when it really starts. It took me around 3 years to realise that.

I might also share that I have detoxed previously 3 times from Alcohol and relapsed due to a number of reasons.

The truth of the matter is though, I was killing my body with poison and it needed to stop for good, once and for all.

Think you need help? PM me and let's chat about my lived experience and how I'm doing everything to stay on this ride of sobriety 🥹⭐️🪃❤️‍🩹

There’s nothing better then laying in bed with the rain falling down, resting, setting my goals for the day and thinking...
22/02/2026

There’s nothing better then laying in bed with the rain falling down, resting, setting my goals for the day and thinking how lucky I am. I know I keep saying I’m doing ‘rehab in the community’ and that’s exactly what it is - with that, I need to be kind to myself though. During the week I worked with my clinical psychologist on triggers. I hadn’t had alot until a few things over the weekend and one thing towards the end of the week that were both around alcohol. Firstly I was triggered by a group chat of a friend sharing a photo of there alcohol (which is a me problem) but I picked up on it straight away (which is what I’m working on - picking up on when they occur and why) and then I was at a party where alcohol was present which did also trigger me. I’m not sure if it was the taste I was missing out on or the laughs and fun or what not but I did exclude myself from that side of the party and go and lay down on a yoga mat and rest and process why I was feeling the way I was. Why wasn’t I drinking? Why was there drinking affecting me? It’s another scenario I should have had a PRN with me (a just incase) of Diazepam with me but I didn’t and thought I would be fine. That medicine calms me down and relaxes me. Which brings me back to being kind to myself and realising there will be these times where I’m triggered and need to be prepared a little better. Its not there fault I’m feeling a little overwhelmed and I feel as though i need to remove myself from said situation to ensure I don’t stop them having a good time how they choose and realise its a me issue and if I need to take half an hour out that’s what I need to do. I had a friend over last week and he brought over one beer which he had while I had a Pepsi Max and it felt great. Plus I also challenged myself on valentines night to head to drift bar and take myself on a date and only have soft drink which was also a win. So sometimes I feel like it will challenge me but I just need to be prepared for these times. I’ve been journaling alot of ideas for the next stage of and that has been exciting throwing a lot of ideas around. I feel on fire and called to purpose.

When I said I would be doing ‘rehab’ in the community that is with support of about 4 different agencies for all differe...
18/02/2026

When I said I would be doing ‘rehab’ in the community that is with support of about 4 different agencies for all different things. The truth is I haven’t really worked much in the last 12 months (probably even 2 and a half years with losing my Mum etc) so sometimes some weeks money can become a bit tight, compared to what I earnt at peak times in my old business, I have a new found respect for money, I’m writing this message in a $289 pair of Ralph Lauren Polo casual pants once upon a time I could afford but today I dropped a message to my case worker at Refocus saying we were a little short this week and within two hours I had this delivery on my door step full of food. Bread, scrolls, finger buns, treats, fruit and veges, donuts, frozen meals, the works. How amazing is that! Sometimes you’ve gotta look past the point of being too proud to ask for help. I could cry poor me about the several reasons I’m in this position but today is a day to say thankyou to Refocus and OzHarvest who made this happen and be sitting on my door step after doing my daily nonnegotiable gym sesh which is apart of my recovery (strong body and commitment = strong mind). It feels good to finally accept the help I have always been too proud to accept but always given others. Sending love to everyone following along at home and anyone struggling reach out for a chat and I just might know which direction to point you in or I’m a good listener or hugger. ❤️

In May of 2025 I walked into AA on Sugar Bag Rd in Caloundra. Nervous, scared someone would know me or see me, I sat in ...
17/02/2026

In May of 2025 I walked into AA on Sugar Bag Rd in Caloundra. Nervous, scared someone would know me or see me, I sat in the car park for quite a long period of time and waited to go in just before it started so there was no time for people to talk to me. I didn’t even know what the inside of the building looked like or what was even going to happen. I got the courage to walk in and the first face I saw was a friend from my men’s group who came and gave me a big hug. It instantly felt safe. He said to sit down and take a little bit of everyone’s story in and I’d see little parts of myself in everyone, he moved over and added a chair next to himself so I could sit. I wasn’t very well at the time. So I was shaking and crying when it came my time to talk but I did it, no judgement, only encouragement and understanding from other peers. Hearing some life long stories were fascinating and sad at the same time. But one thing was true, we were all powerless over alcohol, some people had lost everything and some were in successful high flying corporate jobs but everyone showed up for each other. That’s what AA is all about, there’s some people that have been sober for 15+ years but go to help the next generation, me. My first time I went i started going 5 days a week for the first 2 months and then let the bottle of vodka creep back in, they tell you, ‘just don’t stop coming’ - I stopped coming and I was back on the couch fighting for life again, day after day drinking again. I just couldn’t stop. My friend visited me from AA at the mental health ward and challenged me to committing to coming back and committing to 3 months of AA. I am going to start doing this as of next week. If there’s anyone that’s out there that wants to come and see what it’s like you can come and just watch and not say anything. You can even be a support person for me. But you will learn from people of all walks of life all sharing similar stories of the disease, Alcoholism.
Now I get up with pride and say ‘Hi, I’m Cade and I’m an alcoholic” - I smile when I do, because it’s safe and I’m not hiding it and lieing about it any longer.

Sorry not sorry but it’s about time this kind of behaviour is called out. Through journeys like mine you lose people in ...
15/02/2026

Sorry not sorry but it’s about time this kind of behaviour is called out. Through journeys like mine you lose people in your life that just don’t understand, they just don’t get it, nor try. Unfortunately my ‘best mate’ decided to not contact me or visit me or even message me while I was in the Mental Health Ward. That was his choice, I presumed he just didn’t want to or couldn’t deal with it or might have his own stuff going on so I was just going to let it be - for the best man at your wedding to not reach out during a time of need was beyond weird to me. But he definitely to send me a message after I was released & put up a video saying welcome to ‘My Jawa’ which means ‘My Journey’ which he said it “All it looks like is that you are trying to capitalise from this whole situation” - now, I’ve sat with this over night and have decided and said I was going to be open, that I would be sharing my entire story over time to help and inspire others, if someday this turns into a job as a social worker with lived experience or similar then great, because I am being called that way. I want to help people and help save lives at a grass roots level, I can tell you right now, some of the best support came from people with lived experience, not a degree. (Nothing wrong with getting a degree, I wish I had one actually!) I chose not to name him in a previous post about why men don’t speak out about mental health, because of the treatment and backlash. But then I was attacked over and over by his partner, she did write on the main public post which I have screen shotted and then went onto hurl abuse at me which I have screen shotted and shared in this post where you can make your own mind up. In my opinion, this is exactly what someone in my position does not need. In my eyes it’s unacceptable behaviour, there are lots of words I could add. I wish them all the best but they will no longer be included in my life moving forward, it’s not hard to see why. This journey isn’t easy, every day there is something but I will keep on pushing through. Today is the last day of the shedding of the snake ‘the final stretch is shredding what no longer needs to be carried forward.

And this right here is why men don’t speak out or feel safe to speak out. Yes I put that movie out less than a week from...
15/02/2026

And this right here is why men don’t speak out or feel safe to speak out. Yes I put that movie out less than a week from leaving the Mental Health Ward at the SCUH. I’ve been searching and working on why I am the way I am for over 5 years now, that’s the hardest part, you know everything isn’t ok but you don’t know where to go or where to get help. I’ve spent tens of thousands of dollars over those years to try and help myself but nothing “got me over the line” - But sitting inside that ward for 23 days I promised the day I left I’d start working on my future as I’d finally found purpose. Purpose to help in that gap between not getting help and going to QLD Health for help. Alot of men wont get help from QLD Health as they are worried about how that may affect custody battles etc. I laid everyday in that courtyard, posting my story? Being vulnerable to inspire others to get help or speak out if they needed it, I wrote notes in my phone about what I could do once I got out and then once I got out, my pen danced across the pages of my journal with endless ideas and emotions. I don’t even know what ‘My Jawa’ looks like yet, but I do know it’s going to be amazing and save lives and if you could see the look of my inbox you would agree with me that it is more than needed. Until My Jawa reaches its final position, it will tell lived stories and help and guide others where possible, that’s my purpose now. I had a friend I don’t even speak to but that I grew up with through school visit me in the ward. In that 21 years he had seen me only a handful of times and he came and sat with me and we talked, it was beautiful - thank-you to that person, you know who you are. Did the person who wrote me the message visit? NO. Did they message me? NO. Did they call me? NO. I have a tattoo on my right arm that reminds me to ‘say nice things’ so I’ll just keep this one nice. We’re two days from the end of the shedding of the snake, so it’s time to shed that ‘friend’ who hasn’t added anything but negativity to my life for some time now. This is a reminder to everyone to ‘say nice things’ as you never know what battle someone is going through.

Happy Valentine’s Day! If you know a couple of humans out there that that might be struggling today, let’s change there ...
13/02/2026

Happy Valentine’s Day! If you know a couple of humans out there that that might be struggling today, let’s change there day with a simple phone call 📲🌹🥰 cademooney

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