21/07/2024
The other night I couldn't sleep, so I decided to get up and scrub the grout on the kitchen floor with a toothbrush. The grout never looked clean and I needed a mindfulness activity.
Why I couldn't sleep could be for many reasons. I'd stayed up late again on my phone, binge watching Netflix, eating too much chocolate, stressing over everything I am behind on, but feeling so anxious about it that I'm frozen to do any of it.
I'm know I'm feeling the very things that so many of the people I help feel. I'm human and like so many share with me, I too feel powerless to do it. Instead I eat more chocolate and watch more Netflix. Nothing changes and my chest hurts more and more. The stress and anxiety have been taking over.
I spoke honestly to a friend who called to check in on me. In a serious tone they told me I needed to take a break. That I must get away before it's much harder to recover from the load I've become used to carrying. I value their opinion and knowledge, and to be honest, it's exactly the same advice I'd give to others.
So here I am, sitting in front of a fire at my friends farm, 3 hours out of Sydney. I'm here for a few nights, but to be honest I don't want to come home. The relief has been almost instant. The fresh air, beautiful trees, the sound of mooing cattle, the flowing river and the endless stary skies are all so calming to me. Peace at last.
The conversations with my friend are priceless. She's been feeling life's stressors too. I've stopped long enough to read a trashy book while looking at the view and drinking tea. Making friends with a friendly bird who kept trying to steal my morning toast. I'm in the mood to share so I do. And share this piece of paradise I shall.
Connecting with my friend and taking part in the sisterhood got me thinking that we don't do it enough. So I'd like to invite you to come with me to stay for a couple of nights over a weekend or even a cheeky mid week escape if that's easier? I'm avoiding all but necessary work while I'm here, but if you're interested in doing it, send me a message and I'll put something together. Dusodie Holiday Farm is such a beautiful escape and somewhere you'll find your cup running over.
I know making a priority for ourselves is difficult, but it's so important, but not something that's a possibility to many. If you don't need a holiday or can afford one when you'd like it, perhaps you'd like to donate some funds to pay it forward for someone else that can't afford the luxury?
Until then, I'm going to stoke the fire and pour another glass of wine. Maybe I'll even run a hot bath. This is my time, my time.💙❤️
Dusodie Holiday Farm is set on the banks of the Chichester River, in the foothills of the Chichester State Forest, 20 minutes from Dungog, 1.5 hours from Newcastle and 5 minutes from Chichester Dam, State forests and the Barrington Tops.