02/09/2023
Xav, I wish you knew how much we all love you ❤️
Every Sunday you were the first there, and you would give the dogs a cuddle. More often, you were the only one who could calm Kingston down.
The way you would help me round up new people and show them that JAM was a space where everyone was welcome and important. I wish you knew so badly how fkn important you are to us. The way you encouraged people to support Josie’s class when she first started and would ensure Mel also showed up every week…. There is no one like you.
From the moment I met you at Undercard, I was always so proud to be your coach.
I know I speak on behalf of everyone at JAM, but there is a hole in our hearts that won’t ever be filled. You always lead with kindness and just wanted to ensure people had a good time.
I played Man in the mirror for you today, and I couldn’t find the words. Denelle yelled out your favourite phrase and we all laughed, but part of me just wanted to hear you say it and it all be a bad dream.
If I’m hurting this much, I can’t even imagine how you felt.
All I want for you, is to be at peace. And I hope you have a bike up there, with the brightest nails and whatever crazy hair colour you decide.
The brightest lights often live in the most darkness…. I hope you’re shining up there Xav.
Forever in our hearts,
Love Leash and the JAM fam ❤️