03/05/2026
This is my story. This is why I see you. Why I do what I do.
I know how it feels to be so lost. So lost the only way out is ending it all.
To feel so overwhelmed with basic tasks. To feel stuck and helpless.
The overpowering feeling of being alone, helpless and defenseless without a life-raft in site.
Laying on the floor in your closet as an adult crying and screaming out for help.
Born to a single mother with her own traumas and pain. Who wasn’t prepared to grow and nurture a child. Who didn’t see her own self worth and tried to find it in men who were both physically, verbally and mentally abusive to her and her child.
Growing up being told you’re worthless and stupid by the ones that are supposed to nurture you.
Having this worthlessness ingrained into your DNA and your soul. To feel both the physical and verbal blows week after week, year after year by the hands of those they should be there to love and support you.
Moving out of home at 16, struggling to finish high school while working 2-3 jobs just to pay the rent and have food to eat.
Going through life not being able to make connections with people on a deeper level. Running away from relationships and problems hoping the grass is greener on the other side. Trying to outrun my trauma.
Thinking at times if I just stayed single and alone my problems wouldn’t follow me. But I always yearned for that love and connection I never had growing up.
At my lowest was maxed out on antidepressants and still not coping. They felt like they were working against me. Had made a plan, a tree on the way home from work seemed like a good option at the time.
But somehow I kept pushing through.
Over the years discovering alternative therapies such as Accupuncture and kinesiology to help get me off the medication and a clearer head space.
The past couple of years diving deeper into alternative therapies to heal. To heal years of trauma both in this lifetime and generational trauma.
Reiki has opened my eyes to a much brighter world.
It’s more than just the reiki. So much more. I can’t even begin to explain with words.
Finally in my early 40s I’ve found my true self. Found the love and support I’ve always craved. Found my people. Found love.
I’m in no way fully healed. I don’t believe anyone truly is. Life is ever changing and you have to grow and heal with it.
Don’t struggle alone. Reach out. Share your story.
