
15/11/2022
This human experience kinda sucks sometimes
Yup...you heard it, straight from the "present moment living" poster girl 😅
Even though I have the awareness of where I am sitting, I still have the weight of feelings that just feel all sorts of icky and counter-productive
I have stepped out of my comfort zone far more than usual the last couple of months, which has brought me new opportunities and connections, as well as a new found strength
Yet...the mind floats to the lack of physical evidence or lack of "life changing, fu***ng glory!"
The ego just passive aggressively asking "is it really making a difference?"
I have ideas, creations and visions that fill my entire being. Things I KNOW will come into fruition
Yet the mind goes "your only one person, that's alot"
I can feel what I'm creating
I can feel the transformation
I can feel the energy of all that is being brought to me
Yet the ego is stuck in
"Why hasn't it happened yet"
"What's the point"
"What have I done wrong"
It feels heavy, it creates deep feelings of confusion and intense emotions that make me just want to cry from exhaustion
I have to sit in it, let it crack me open and embody that which I don't wish to face
-The belief that I don't deserve my desires and that I will never achieve them-
Shoving that down is going to create an energetic hell hole 🫠
I am grateful for all that feels light and beautiful
It is what carries me through the distortion created by the ego and allows space for me to simply be
Sitting in all this humanness is necessary and deeply needed even when it feels like literal 💩
So go cry, sing, throw some sticks, punch a pillow, dance until you can't move or just open your heart to another
That is the s**t that moves mountains
Isabeau x
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