20/01/2026
~ 10 years ago ~
I started 2016 almost 40 weeks pregnant and still had another two weeks before this guy graced us with his presence 💫
Ten years ago (last week!) I became a mum, and started the most unimaginably transformational and humbling adventure, I never could have anticipated!
In a lot of ways, it was the beginning of trying to work out who I was. Up until this point, I'd largely just gone along with whatever my friends/partner wanted, and honestly didn't really think I had any interests or preferences of my own.
After this guy arrived, I started to realise that wasn't how I wanted to live anymore. The mainstream "normal" way of parenting felt so grating to my system, that I had to figure out another way. Which meant learning how to feel, and to figure out who I was. Learning how to trust myself, and to challenge or tune out the people, systems and my own doubts so I could connect with what I knew was right, underneath all the noise. To value connection and relationship above control, even when it was judged harshly by those closest to me.
This guy is my guru. He has stretched me daily (at least) for the last ten years and pushed me into depths I didn't even know I had. I've dug deep into the darkest parts of myself and have come through so much stronger, so much softer, with so much more patience and capacity for love.
There is nothing like raising humans to inspire pursuing our own truths, standing up for what we believe in, and doing our bit to make the world a better place 💫 I am so proud of this journey, and so incredibly grateful for the opportunity to see all my sh!tty bits light up like a Christmas tree so I can begin to understand and shift them, not just for me, but for my kids, my grandkids and my entire lineage.
What a fkn ride is parenting 😂💃👏
I also changed my hair colour a lot apparently 😂