17/11/2025
A letter for little Mads ❤️🩹
Hey little lady! I wish writing you this letter was possible in reality, I would have delivered it by fairy mail just to keep your magic alive. Things aren’t great and they’re not in your control - but you’ll be okay. You’ll learn to let it all go through dance and you’ll win many awards and praise - even though it won’t ever outweigh what’s happening at home.
You won’t find peace until you’re 25, but I promise you it’s worth it. You’ll shuffle through friends and no one will ever truly get to know you, keep yourself safe first, you’re not responsible for anyone else.. no matter how hard you try to put yourself in the firing line, bad things will happen to other people, it’s inevitable.
Make sure you take lots of photos with those you love, you’re lucky though, your first lesson in grief won’t happen until you’re 17. After that it just seems like turmoil in your life until you finally get what you’ve always wanted, a daughter. You get a mini-maddie and boy oh boy is it healing and hurtful all in the same. You’ll see so much of the old you in her personality and face, but she won’t know the hurt you did. You’ll never fully understand why no one came to save you, but I promise you learn to save yourself.
The next 20 years are gonna be fu***ng rough, but you’re resilient and you learn so much along the way! You get rewarded with a supportive and loving partner and daughter.. I promise you it’s all worth it. Oh and You can trust your little sister to keep your secrets, so stop telling her to go away - you’ll regret not spending more time with her.
I love you, you are worthy of joy and you were always enough to make the right people proud 🩷
Big Mads xx
