09/06/2025
THE TRUTH ABOUT ME...on our 12 year anniversary of a life changing event that directed my life towards helping horses.
I'm going to be completely honest, open and bare with you for a bit. Some of you have asked me before about why I became a massage therapist and I may have given you an answer that wasnt 100% truth.
So further that the 'I love horses' explanation, I'm attaching a story that I wrote 3 days after an accident with my horse. I wrote it because I was having flash backs and nightmares and just couldnt sleep and needed it out of me head. It was never intended for anyone to read, I just needed to let it go. In a moment that could have taken my life, that could have taken OUR lives, she kept us safe and saved us both. This accident IS the reason why. She chose to trust me and I made a promise in what I thought was going to be our last hour to give back with all I have, to ALL of them.
This is my story.... (please bear with me, im not tech smart, ive just pasted here, its LONG)
Sunday 9th June 2013- around 1.30 Gem (my 7y/o anglo, endurance horse) and I head off for a nice ride in our brand new Horselines Polocrosse Deluxe saddle. After gem having 2 months off we decide to have a nice slow walk of our usual 12k track which is all roads (sealed and gravel) and we know it very well.
We headed over the first hill and hit the 6k of flat road which we usually head around at a pretty good pace and gem remembers this and is pretty keen to get going, but I keep reminding her that were taking it easy today and we need to walk. Shes not so convinced and we settle for a nice strong working walk.
At about 5k from home we were wandering along the side of the gravel road and I felt gems back near side foot slip followed by her hind end and the next I know were falling backwards into a ditch I hadnāt even noticed until we were half way in. the next few moments were a blur of bushes and legs and when all was still I found us both at the bottom of a very narrow 4 meter deep ditch that ran under the road, instant intense pain running through my legs. Mine and Gems heads were covered by black berries so I pulled at them, aware of them tearing at my skin but I needed to get them off of us. Right, gem was completely upside down and struggling a little but lay still for me when I soothed her. Both of my legs were under her body and her neck lay up my torso and her head near mine. I pushed her head over to the right of my to asses things a bit better, I couldnāt get my legs free no matter how I struggled. āheeeelllppā¦.. help meā¦.ā The houses were too far away on this quiet road, no one would hear. I find myself thinking im in some kind of deranged movie. What is going on? What is happening here? This is just a weird nighmare right? God the pain in my leg is intense. I remembered my phone was in my vest pocket, I reached for it but my vest had been twisted around in the fall and the zip to my pocket was now around at my back, I wiggled and pulled and finally got my zip undone and phone out- no range. . Wait, isnāt there a number you can call for emergencies when you dont have range? What is it? 111? 222? Damnit, 000? God that still doesnāt work, I put my phone back in my pocket, almost losing it in the blackberries. God, we would never be found. Wait theres a car. āHELP MEā¦.HELPā. The car kept going, theres no way they can hear me. Weāre only 1 meter from the side of the road but 4 meters down, and covered by blackberries, no one would see us.
My legs were quickly loosing feeling. Ok gem, we have to work at this. Gem was laying nice and still for me and not panicking but now I needed her to try and move. I hit her on the chest and yelled at her ācmon Gem we have to get out of this, MOVEā⦠she struggled a little and I managed to move her head over to the left side of me as I ducked under her neck in the little room we had there, I got my right leg free! Thatās a start! With my left leg stuck tight under the saddle and taking her whole weight, the whole time yelling for help at the top of my lungs, I reached down and managed to undo the girth, the breast plate clips but received no relief.
Another car, I grabbed a handful of earth and tried to throw it up so the passing car could see āHELP ME!!!ā⦠I cant even throw the dirt up far enough to reach the top of our ditch⦠Im starting to feel like Gem and I have reached our end and we would never get out of here. My thoughts turn to the beautiful faces of my 2 daughters and my amazing husband at home, not 5 kilometers away. I need to see my babies again, and with the pain driving through my left leg I contemplate what life would be like without it as im certain itās a possibility.
āHELP MEā¦ā¦ OH GEM, MY LEGā¦.. HEEEEELLLLPPPP USāā¦. Why can no one hear me. My phone, maybe I have range now? I check my phone again but still no range. What was that emergency numberā¦. 112! I dial the number and I hear a mans voice, oh god it worked! ā000 which emergency service do you requireā. My voice was shaky and rushed āoh god I donāt know, im trapped under my horse in a ditch and no one can see meā, I donāt recall what his reply was but then I heard a ladies voice āwhat is your emergency?ā āIm trapped under my horse, in a ditchā she cut me off, āwhere are youā I told her the name of the road but I had no idea how far down the road I was, I didnāt know the numbers. I gave her my husbands phone number and told her to call him and then told me that police and ambulance were on the way and wait, whats that, another carā¦. āHELPā¦.. WERE DOWN HERE⦠HELP MEEEEā . I hung up but was somehow not at all relieved? What were the police and ambulance going to do if I was still in the ditch? How long would it be till they would find us? How would they get us out? I need to get OUT, my leg⦠god, gem we need to get my leg out⦠I tried digging under my leg , but its just rock and heavily compacted clay, thatās not helpingā¦. āHELPā¦. My throat is dry and my voice sounding hoarse.
āHELPāā¦. It feels like weve been down here forever. Where is everyone? I stroke Gem down her neck as she lay there, helpless and upside down, legs in the air like a dog. Gem this doesnāt happen to usā¦. We are getting out of here, I promise to her. The worry in her beautiful eye makes me promise SHE WILL get out of here. āHELP USā. Over the screaming of my own voice I hardly hear the car that has slowed to a stop just near, is that voices? HELP, I yell louder. āWERE DOWN HERE, HELPāā¦. Oh god theres a man appear in view. The look on his face is concerning. And a lady, god ive never been so happy to see other people. He asks what he can do to help, I donāt know. The lady tries to come down the side of the ditch to me. I yell to her not to come down, it would just be dangerous and its too steep. The man (Malcolm) tells the lady (Jo) to call 000, I tell him I already have and someone is on the way. He says he has a rope and I ask him to throw it down. I tied the end around Gems off side leg and ask Malcolm to try and take some of her weight so I can see if I can get my leg free. He pulls gently and gem struggles. GOD, the intense pain of her writhing on my dead leg. I cant stand it and I cant move it an inch still. I have to yell at him to stop. Woah gem, I soothe her again and she is still, but my leg is now in a worse position and the pain is unbearable. I cant help but scream.
I tell Malcolm we just have to wait till someone else gets there to help. Trying to hold back my screaming out in pain. Ive never felt pain like this. Another couple arrive, an elderly couple, they have no ropes to help. God where is more help? Please get us outā¦.
Over the side of the bank I see my neighbours face. (My husband contacted JJ to come find me as he had to wait for someone to arrive to care for our girls before h came) A little relief comes over me and I cry out to him, pleading, āoh JJ, you have to get us out of here, I need to get outā. JJ has more ropes, there are many more faces around the edge of the ditch now. Another rope comes down and I tie it around gems halter and another rope for gems other front leg. Some one starts to pull already, āNOT YETā I yell through muffled screams of pain. āI need a rope around me so we come out at the same time, I donāt want to be under here if she struggles againā. An older man throws a rope down from the other side of the ditch and I tie it under my arms. I reassure gem we are going to be ok and look up at JJ, who has the rope attached to her halter- āJJ, Gem has to get out of this ditch. She IS coming out, okā¦.Promise meā. He nods his head.
The next part is a little blurred also, everyone pulls their ropes at once and my leg is free and then the two men on my rope pull me up the right side of the ditch and as I get to the top I turn to see gem half way out the other side of the ditch, she takes 2 last huge bounds and is outā¦. Gem is out⦠a cry of relief. I yell āthankyou everyone, thankyouā. JJās mum is there, I was relieved to see her. I Knew she worked at the local aged care facility, she would be sure I was ok. She covered me with a space blanket and checked me over, she was asking me questions but I had to check gem was ok. āIs gem ok, is she alright?ā I yelled over the ditch. She was fine, They were putting her in the paddock just across the road as the gathering crowd was making her nervous. āare you ok?ā someone asked me, āim fine as long as gem isā was my response. There was my husband. As the feeling started coming back into my leg, the pain was worsening. The ambulance arrived in good time and I was soon being taken care of with some pain relief, checking often to see that gem was ok, I was informed that she was trotting around the paddock. Then I saw a familiar face, Louise, a member of the local riding club. She lived just up the road and came down when she saw a random horse in a paddock that usually didnāt have horses. She told me she would walk gem home to my house, I was so glad for her lovely kind offer. I would rest easier knowing she was home with her paddock mates.
So off to the hospital and to the surprise of the doctors, there were no broken bones. Possibly a chip off the talus bone in my ankle and some serious swelling and bruising along with some possible tendon and ligament damage. I had a few other small injuries like a swollen elbow and quite a few bruises. Although the Blackberry scratches were quite impressive! I was home by midnight Sunday night, but there was no sleep for me with vivid flash backs of the whole ordeal.
Gem and I have both had quite a bit of treatment, kinesiology and bowen to name a few and I hope we will be back on the tracks in no time to get fit for our qualifying 80k endurance ride.
Id like to use our accident as a way to let others know of the 112 Emergency services contact number that you can use when out of range. It certainly saved valuable time for Gem and I and if it could help one other person in an emergency then this story is worth it.
Id also like to give credit to everyone who helped us both and my special mare Gem. In the situation we were in, she could have quite easily caused much more damage had she panicked. Shes a beautiful soul.