20/11/2025
In my early 20s I thought pushing, begging and bargaining was what was required to get what I want.
I was restless under the pressure of expectation. I responded by wanting to create a level of chaos. I wanted to ruffle feathers and experience the edges of what was deemed āsafeā and āacceptableā so I could finally feel ALIVE.
I begged and bargained with God to get what I thought I wanted.
He gave it to me. Yet what came with it were harsh lessons that cracked me open and brought me to my knees.
Through that pain I finally met my soul. I realised what I truly, genuinely wanted. Not out of expectation, out of conformity or out of spite, but for my heart to feel heard and my soul to feel held and freed from the shackles of guilt, shame and pressure.
It was one of a few sacred pivots in my life.
Suddenly my focus was brought inward. I focused on how I took care of myself, how I spoke to myself, how I showed up and took responsibility for my choices and actions.
Momentum now continues to build in a direction that is aligned with my soul.
Even when I falter. Even when I fail. Even when life seasons take me off course or I try to hide because it feels too much or too big.
In the depth of who I am, it has lit a fire of intention in me.
What followed is a new journey of rediscovering forgotten passions and desires.
A healed connection with the masculine.
An ignition of my interests and intrigue for
energetics, the sacred wisdom of the body and the peace that comes from allowing yourself to surrender into the safety and power of the feminine.
Lessons of discernment, commitment and devotion with my time and energy to what is important to me continues always.
These lessons have and continues to create a deeper, more fulfilling life. And it just keeps getting better.
A life where it awakens my spirit daily.
One that brings me the courage to lay solid foundations of which I can then bravely leap from.
One that is softer, kinder, gentlerā¦yet strong.
One action, one intention, one moment, one day at a time.
⦠So I can help others do the same from this place.
I am on a mission to awaken all of who I am, so I can continue to support others to do the same.