21/01/2026
I’ve been in a deep void for the past few weeks.
Yesterday, my world as I currently know it was flipped upside down. It has me reflecting on change; how we cope with it, and how it impacts us.
As humans, it’s one of the things we fear the most. I know I certainly do! Throughout my life, the fear of change has kept me hanging onto so many things for well longer than I needed to. It has kept me in relationships that were keeping me small, in jobs that made me miserable, in emotional states that were draining me constantly, and in choosing habits daily that were not supportive or nourishing for growth.
They were, and still are, offering me safety, security and stability. Keeping my capacity and my nervous system safe.
The saying “Your nervous system will always choose a familiar hell over an unfamiliar heaven” pops into my mind as I sit with this.
This is not to shame any situation that we may be choosing; our bodies are always doing the best they can with what they know.
Change is f**king terrifying.
Change is also liberating and exciting!
We are so afraid of change.
We avoid it at all costs.
Yet, the only constant in the universe is change.
Change is necessary for growth.
Nothing in nature stays the same.
Everything gets a little uncomfortable while shedding the old, letting go of the dead weight, releasing the parts that no longer serve.
When a tree lets go of dead leaves and branches, its energy is no longer wasted trying to sustain what’s already dying.
That energy gets redirected, nourishing new growth and strengthening what’s already thriving.
I have no idea where the path ahead of me is going.
I feel myself floating in a void.
My mind wants to show me all the ways I should worry and “fix” it.
When I take a breath and allow myself to come into my body, I feel spaciousness and nervous excitement.
The common story I notice coming up in my mind when there’s a big change looming is the “less than” story. The story that this change will result in less. The scarcity story.
What if this change creates twice as much for me?
What if this is the stepping stone needed for so much more than we ever thought possible…
What if the stories we listen to, the ones that keep us staying in the same situations for comfort, are the very things keeping us small and standing in the way of all of our wildest dreams coming to fruition?
Maybe the fear isn’t a sign to stop.
Maybe it’s a sign we are expanding.
I imagine the universe/god/higher self/whatever it may be to you, yelling “FINALLY” when change is thrust upon us, and it leads us to something so much greater.
When we get the hell out of our own way.
So here I am, riding the void of life on my magic carpet and surrendering to it all.
Because deep in my bones, I know this uncomfortable shedding is for great expansion.
And I’m here for it. ❤️🔥
