08/03/2026
I get to worry sometimes and then, I remember. I get to doubt sometimes and then, I remember. My mind will make me doubt my path and then, when I reconnect with the silence within, I remember.
I really believe there's a plan of which I have no control at all, that everything has been orchestrated in the most perfect way for my own growth, healing and ultimately for my own liberation from the limitations of this mind and body I get to carry with me.
I didn't use to believe that. I thought I had control, that I could choose my own destiny. Well, this 44 years of my life have proven me otherwise. Through my own life experiences and inner insights, I have discovered (or perhaps just remembered) that everything in my life has been put in place for a reason, that even the greatest challenges I might face are there for me to see, grow, heal and become stronger, gentler, wiser and more humble.
I can see it looking back throughout my life and even right now. It's obvious to me.
In a world where most people are going somewhere or are building something: a business, a relationship, a life, a career, a future, a retirement, etc. I am now (and I have been for a while) going in the opposite direction: Dismantling and deconstructing the idea of who I believe I am and the idea of a "future" that I get to control.
Yes, most people are looking for something to build, I think that I'm not (anymore). At least for now.
Something that in theory can be easy to say, but not quite easy to embrace. To let go of what I have and trust in an uncertain future.
In a world where most people are asking themselves "What about me?", I realised, by asking me the exact same question while feeling sorry for myself that "there's no ME". I realised that there's no "ME" to please. That for me to find the ultimate peace, the "ME" needs to dissolve.
It's not easy. It's challenging at times, and it has been for the last couple of years, especially when my head takes over and thinks about "the future". However, when I can return to my heart, when I can return to the TRUST that lives in me, it becomes a deeply liberating experience.
Life has shown me that searching for happiness will only bring one more suffering. So, what do I do then? I seek for peace instead, for silence in the mind. Then, it's in that silence where I can see, feel, know and experience the truth. Today more than ever I want to keep living from that place. Something I have aspire for many years, but that can only come with deep ACCEPTANCE that nothing can be any other way and TRUST that things are (and they will always be) the way they are for a reason beyond what my mind can comprehend.
This journey is available to everyone, so if you resonate with it, join us and show up to any of the upcoming gatherings we hold.
Namaste 🙏🏼
Cristian
