12/30/2025
This year not only changed me... It softened me.
Not in the loud, performative ways people expect but in the quiet, irreversible ones.
I stopped pretending I needed to rush my healing or minimize the weight of what I lived through. I let myself acknowledge patterns I had survived inside of, and instead of turning that awareness into shame, I turned it into freedom.
I learned that familiarity is not the same as safety. That chemistry without emotional presence no longer gets to sit at my table. I began noticing where old dynamics tried to re-enter my life and for the first time, I didn’t abandon myself to keep the connection. I honored the truth that my timing, my needs, and my nervous system matter.
I reclaimed my sensuality as power, not performance. I softened without shrinking. I opened without over giving. I discovered that being deeply embodied also made me more protective, more discerning, and more honest about what I require to feel secure and seen.
I leaned fully into my relationship with the divine feminine not as an aesthetic, but as devotion. Through ritual, goddess work, and returning again and again to my body, I shed layers of shame tied to motherhood, aging, and worth. I stopped hiding parts of myself that were never meant to be hidden.
I stepped into midlife not as a woman “starting over,” but as a woman arriving. I honored my role as a mother while consciously creating space for who I am beyond it. I chose pleasure, autonomy, and truth over obligation.
I found my voice this year. Sometimes poetic. Sometimes firm. Sometimes trembling but spoken anyway. I stopped cushioning my needs to make them easier to accept. I learned that clarity is an act of self respect.
Most of all, I learned to trust myself.
Not perfectly. Not without doubt.
But enough to pause.
Enough to choose differently.
Enough to walk away from what no longer aligns with who I am becoming.
This year wasn’t about reinvention.
It was about remembering who I am when I stop abandoning myself.
And that changed everything.
If this resonates, tell me: what truth are you finally allowing yourself to honor?