03/25/2026
Yesterday my shower started leaking.
Not a small drip… a “grab a bucket and panic slightly” kind of leak.
And I’ll be honest—my triggers got loud. Lately I’ve been sitting with a lot of self-doubt about my ability to handle life as the “responsible adult.”
A few years ago, I would have taken something like this in stride. Yesterday? It felt heavier.
We ran back and forth between hardware stores, uncovered some questionable choices from previous owners, and tried to figure it out as we went.
And instead of grounding myself like I *know* to do… I pushed everything down.
Because I had to deal with it. Because there wasn’t time to fall apart.
Did that help? Not really.
It made everything louder. Harder. More overwhelming. But here’s the part we don’t talk about enough in healing: ✨ Sometimes the healing happens *after* the moment.
Once things were under control, I sat with myself and really looked at what came up.
– Old fear I picked up from watching my dad struggle with plumbing
– Old wounds from a relationship that chipped away at my confidence
– The familiar spiral that shows up when I’m tired and overwhelmed
None of those thoughts were actually helpful in the moment. But they made sense.
And that’s the work.
Not being perfect in the moment.
Not always responding “the healed way.”
But coming back after, with honesty instead of judgment.
Reminding yourself: You did your best. You handled it. You’re still learning.
Next time(hopefully), I’ll remember to pause.
To ground.
To breathe *before* the spiral.
But for now, I’m not beating myself up. Because healing isn’t about getting it right every time… It’s about meeting yourself with compassion when you don’t.
If you’re in a season where everything feels heavier than it “should”…
you don’t have to figure it out alone.
My Focus & Flow readings and 1:1 coaching are designed for moments exactly like this—
where your mind is loud, your nervous system is overwhelmed, and you need clarity and grounding.
Send me a message if you feel called 🤍
(picture of Oliver and Larry....who didn't care at all about the leak.)