12/08/2025
Dear ones, a big shift is happening in my life. After spending too long in the dark and the muck and the uncertainty of what was meant for me, I have found clarity: it is time for Cedar Sisters to be put to rest.
I am letting go of the title 'doula', with such gratitude and peace in my heart. It is time to close this chapter. This work was my calling for ten years, and I grew so much by sitting at the feet of women, of birth, of families as they grew. I learned so much from my teachers and my doula friends, and each family I got to know.
I became a doula because birth woke me up to my own strength, and I know that being a doula was what I was meant to do, to be a reflection for others of who they truly are and how much they are capable of.
Now it is time for something else. Doula work led me back to energy work, and to ceremony, and to grief work. I am following those threads, and weaving them into what will be born out of the rich soil of the cedar sisters as they nestle down into the forest floor. (Thank you, thank you, thank you, dear cedars.)
I will always be a "doula". I will always be a calming presence for those who walk through big (and small) changes and challenges in their lives. I cannot unbecome what I have become in this decade, it is now part of how I interact and show up for people, and for myself: with non-judgement, gentleness, advocacy, and presence.
If I was your doula in any capacity, THANK YOU, thank you, thank you. You taught me so much. You showed me what strength and softness and power and purpose and vulnerability can look like. You let yourself be seen, witnessed, and held in such a tender time in your life, and I treasure your courage.
I will still be supporting the families I am currently walking with on their paths to birth, and am so honoured and grateful to get to complete this work with a peaceful and grateful heart.
I will still be teaching Reiki Level 1 on January 31 as Cedar Sisters Doula & Reiki, and there is space for you if this idea creates a flutter in your chest.
If you are part of this community and want to remain so, fear not. The path is not clear yet, but I am not finished holding space for community, for gatherings, for ceremony and the unraveling and reweaving of who we are in the world.
In a couple of weeks my website will disappear into the annals of cyber-nothingness, and again this brings me such peace. There is part of me that wants to keep it alive, try to force it into being something new, but it is time to clear the way for what wants to be found.
I will keep this page alive for the next bit. When the Next Thing reveals itself completely, I will share it with you here and invite you to follow there.
Be well, dear ones. Let die in your lives what must die. Mourn it, honour it, grieve it, celebrate it. And let it go. Nothing is forever, not even a calling of our heart's work. Listen to your own inner wisdom. It knows what is meant for you, and what is complete. You know, wise ones. You know.
THANK YOU for being here, for witnessing me in my unfolding and reforming. I am always here to receive your news, updates, wonderings, worries, and requests.
My email cedarsistersdoula@gmail.com will still be a good way to get in touch in the next few months, if you want to. Thank you, thank you, thank you, dear community.
