August 25th, 2014 it was my last day worked, and the first day of my healing journey. I had been suffering with a herniated disc that was impinging on nerves causing vertigo, nerve hypersensitivity and crazy amounts of pain. Going through all this it triggered PTSD, chronic pain throughout my body, anxiety and panic attacks that eventually landed me with a mental health diagnosis by my Psychiatrist of Borderline Personality Disorder. I also got to see a Rheumatologist who diagnosed me with arthritis and fibromyalgia. For one who suffers from depression, this all came as a huge kick in the butt. I realized that now I need to start looking after myself, I need to willingly go on this healing journey and travel hard roads along the way. I learned that I needed to find a hobby to help keep me going, so when my girlfriend asked if I wanted to take a soap making class, I thought sure, I've always wanted to know how to do that. What I didn't realize, was that I was unlocking an inner passion that I didn't know I had. I wanted to learn more about what else I could make in small batches in a small amount of time during good health moments. I have now made lotion, deodorant, body butter, lip balm, natural face care, etc. I am loving my hobby, but with my therapy being so expensive, I'm finding it hard to continue with it. I thought about what I could do, and the only thing I could think of is to sell the product that I make and in return have money to continue my hobby. I am being treated with Dialectical Behaviour Therapy to help me get better. This therapy is 2 hours a week @$120/hour. I am currently appealing for help, as I have been denied by 3 different companies who should be helping with this. I have been going for 1 hour a week since August 2015, and am finding that I am suffering with the lack of time with my therapist, and stressing about where the money is going to come from. This has made me dream about selling more product to have my proceeds pay for therapy. I have thought about starting a go fund me account, but then decided to try this myself first. I truly appreciate all the support that I get on this journey to find my peace.
