12/13/2025
THE STRUGGLE
I feel afraid, overwhelmed, and exhausted. Some days I’m uninspired, other days I feel inspired but completely stuck. I wonder if anything will ever change and if it does, would it bring relief or just more struggle? Deep down I know there has to be something more meaningful than just this daily grind.
I believe in a Creator that guides me, but I can’t seem to connect with it. I don’t know if I have intuitive gifts, and I don’t know how to access or develop them. I feel like I’m always reaching for something greater but it’s just out of reach. All the while, I am moving through waves of grief, anger, anxiety, apathy, and depression.
THE AWAKENING
Something’s shifted. I feel a surge of new life, like I’ve finally come home to myself. It’s like a remembrance, a homecoming to something I didn’t realize I’d lost. I’m joyful, optimistic, and excited for the future.
I begin to understand that all those intuitive nudges and “sensitivities” are actually soul gifts. With this comes the awareness that I’m the master of my own life, capable of shaping it as I will if I simply believe. A deep peace washes over me, and I feel inspired by the endless possibilities.
For the first time in a long while, I feel loved, supported, and guided by something greater than me and at the same time IS me. I find trust in the universe again, and with it comes awe and complete faith.
I start to see with clarity all the ways I’ve held myself back, made myself small, underestimated my own power. With this clarity, it’s like I’ve returned to the innocence of my childhood, where I believe I can make a difference in the world, where life can be good. Where it’s safe to love life and feel life loving me back 💙