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08/30/2025

I love you my guy.🩵

08/09/2025

This morning’s energy; with the smells of basil, dill and blackberries in my nose I’m transported back to childhood on The Funny Farm, so named by some islanders who swore you never knew what might come running out of the Boser’s driveway. It might be a lamb named Artemis who wore a jewelled collar, a crippled old French Poodle named Chouchou who would merrily skip down the road, he was so curly it was hard to know if he was coming or going.

I find my thoughts are taking me back to my childhood, back to life before Steve. I think a part of my psyche needs to remember who I was before him and that I lived without him then. A small comfort but it’s weird what our brains do.
Summer then was filled with time in our garden, baskets of fresh basil, picking cucumbers and tomatoes and my parents canning. I was tasked with picking blackberries so one hot morning Leah and I, atop our faithful ponies Mini and mine,Sassy, who was not actually faithful at all but a true rancid bitch. She was a white and brown Welsh/Shetland pinto. The arms and legs broken by her were hard to keep track of. Rarely did we use saddles but this day I had my western saddle and a 5 gallon bucket and off we went, down to the valley to pick. An hour later with buckets brimming we scrambled up on the ponies and set off for home. Lyall Harbour Hill always meant going home so Sassy, the rancid bitch, decided to do so with gusto. Fast. Wildly. No amount of pulling on the reins helped so I clung on to the big bucket in front of me, which proceeded to bang down on the saddle horn. Which proceeded to break the bottom of the bucket off. By the time we veered into our driveway, me crying in anger, myself and my mostly white pony were stained with 5 gallons of blackberries. I was so furious but my parents laughed hysterically for hours at the purple two. Sassy was not at all bothered and happily munched at grass. I think Leah and I must have gone swimming to cool off. Blackberry picking after that was done on foot.
My birthday yesterday was strange, very peaceful, full of kindness from everyone to which I am eternally grateful. To all who reached out I thank you, every single message filled my heart. ❤️

07/16/2025

Days sped by, then weeks, which turned into months, two to be exact since he left. There have been some hard days for sure but not all has been dark and heavy.
The garden blooms and grows daily. The scarlet runners make at least 4 inches a day. The pumpkins greedily spread wherever the hell they want and the hops is a drunken l**h, brazenly smacking my ass as I walk by, often tangling in my hair. It gets clipped back into place often.
I find I’m making shrines all over the house, shrines to Steve, to grief, to my parents or simply to the magic of here and now.
I have my Mom in a teapot, Dad in a ginger jar and Steve in a beautiful maple box surrounded by his buddhas and beloved sloths.
My life is slowly taking on new dimensions; more time in the garden, more time with Cory and the kids, more time with friends….more time on my own. This is not always comfortable. In my missing Steve so much I also crave that intense,tightly scheduled pattern that our life was, complete with so much stress. It’s weird to miss the stress but it was interwoven with Steve’s care, with helping him in his life, and in that process I lost a lot of mine. It is strange to get it back and not know what to do with it.
I’m being patient with myself, this too is new. I give myself the “just get through this day before giving yourself another list “ talk.
I eat supper whenever I want, sometimes it’s popcorn, sometimes it’s toast. Easy.
Steve is with me constantly, he leaves dimes, loonies and even pennies in the weirdest of places, it always makes me smile.
I rejoice at every new bloom, new cuke or pea that forms, easy does it, breathe in, breathe out. 🐞🌞

06/22/2025

We celebrated Steve today; it was a day of such love, laughter and a beautiful sharing of stories. As hard as losing him has been I am PROFOUNDLY GRATEFUL to this incredible community. The kids and I are truly humbled and awed by the support, by the helping kindnesses and the outpouring of care. What a treasure trove of people you all are! To all those who came today, from far and near, to his family who have been unwavering in their love and care. To our friends who’ve showed up again and again. To his work people who came today. To old friends who reached out and who were there today…. Thank you. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for loving my guy like I do. For loving me and our family. Thank you and a multitude of blessings to all of you. You’ve made my fractured world a much better place. I truly love you all. 🙏🏼🩵

06/04/2025

06/03/2025

Wishing my Kendall Happy 32nd Birthday. It’s a bittersweet day, as we celebrate our beauty of a daughter and I wish for her such happiness, luck and true joy as we find our way through this intense time.
Kendall, I hope you always see your light and kindness and let those gifts be your superpower. Happy Birthday Baby, I love you so very much.🌞🩵🌷

05/29/2025

Wishing my wonderful sister-in-law Debbie Lawson Sanderson the biggest Happy Birthday.
The first occasions after loss are always so hard and she’s had a double whammy. But even through the loss of her Archie she was a stalwart right beside Steve, everyday. They talked countless times a day and laughed, cried or bi***ed but it was so much a part of his day and he loved every minute of it.
Deb, I’m so damn grateful for you; for your love and support, for driving the Malahat to taxi my butt to and fro (along with Danny)…. There’s been a lot of hard knocks lately but the silver lining is you my sister and the rest of your family. I wish for peace and love for you today.🙏🏼💚🩵⭐️

05/25/2025

As we continue to find our way through each day we take such comfort in the animals. Seger is our emotional support dog and this is him with his emotional support potato that he stole when I was trying to plant them the other day. He carries it everywhere, he even slept with it beside me on the bed last night, I let him.🖤

05/20/2025

A celebration of a wonderful man, Steve Lawson, will be held at Duncan Community Lodge, 2244 Moose Rd, Duncan, BC from 12:00-3:00 on Saturday, June 21st.
All are welcome.🙏🏼❤️

05/18/2025

This started to bloom the day he died.🙏🏼♥️

05/14/2025

This is a post I truly wish I never had to make….how do I say that this man,my husband, my Steve has left this earthly realm? This man who has been my world for over 43 years had a heart attack and died yesterday morning after weeks of being in the hospital, having part of his leg amputated. He was such a trooper, always laughing, always with the Dad jokes, but his body was so tired. I watched him slowly lose life force all the while thinking “If I could just get him home he’ll heal”. He had other plans.
I’ll be taking some time away from work to navigate this new world, the one without him in it but I’m already beyond grateful for our beautiful family and amazing friends and community who were all with us yesterday to say goodbye to him.
Oh my Guy, I know you’re not far from us all and I love you FEROCIOUSLY.🩵

05/11/2025

Wishing my Justin the very Happiest of Birthdays!! How in the heck are you 36??? It seems like yesterday when we were wandering around the forest, you decked out in your knights armour, complete with sword, searching for enemies to vanquish, you schooling me on every single dinosaur,(with a test every night before bed).
It’s been a pretty huge time for our family but I find so much joy in watching you come into yourself and am excited to see what you make of your life. You were my first Mother’s Day present, what a gift you are! I love you ferociously my Jus!!🌱💚🌱💚