12/08/2021
Find your holiday Zen
The first week of December has already whizzed by and I'm nervously envisioning how I will manage to get all of my shopping, baking and wrapping done before the big day.
From very early on in my childhood memories to this very moment as an adult, I have always built up December 25th in my mind to be the pinnacle of gift giving, celebration and joy. It has created more stress in my life than any other holiday or special day, including birthdays because, for some strange reason, I just want it to be perfect for my kids. I want them to rip open that gift, turn to me with wide eyes and a huge grin and shout, "That's exactly what I wanted!" My love language is most definitely gifts when it comes to Christmas morning.
Now that my kids are adults, I increasingly feel that twinge of anxiety when there is nothing of "significance" wrapped under the tree. No Power Rangers or Polly Pockets, no GT Snow racers or I-phone 13 Pro-max cellphones or airplane tickets to Disneyland. Their lists are so practical these days!
And it's not my children who have high expectations of expensive gifts, this, I put squarely on my own shoulders. But this year will be different and I willingly release the negative habits and emotions surrounding gifts and giving this season.
There will be a few practical gifts to unwrap under the tree but, this Christmas, my kids will get the best of me as I embrace my holiday zen habits.