03/02/2026
A lot of you have asked where my reels are 🤔
Well, here we go.
I realized through this SM push that I have Aphantasia.
What is that? Well, it is the inability to visualize. Anything! No "mind’s eye." No dreams, no mental pictures, no "vision boards" in my head.
I can’t see faces when I close my eyes. I can’t "see" a vision for a Reel before I make it. I once painted my basement purple and yellow because I couldn’t "see" that they clashed! 🙈☠️
For a long time, trying to curate the "perfect" Reel made me feel like an idiot. I was spending 8+ hours a day struggling because I couldn't see the end result. Self-deprecation is never a good thing. My brain just works in words and feelings, not pictures.
Here’s the beautiful part: Maybe this is why I’m good at teaching. I can’t rely on imagery. I have to articulate. I have to explain what something feels like. I teach from sensation, not from a mental picture. 🧘♀️
I’ll still share tutorials sometimes, but they’ll just be perfectly imperfect. A little insight into how my brain works. ❤️
Right now, I’m enjoying more time with my hubby, with Donny, and with my practice. These mean so much more to me. 💕
I appreciate the patience and time my SM friend/helper spent with me. It must have been so hard to work with someone who can't see things. Your patience means the world to me. 😘
And a gentle reminder: we are all designed differently. Be kind to yourself. You’re not behind. You’re not stupid. You’re wired uniquely.
Are you a visualizer or an Aphant? Let’s chat in the comments! 👇
