01/03/2025
Part 2/2:
So part one if you didn’t read it, basically is saying it’s not the lack of success but more realizing this wasn’t the business I wanted to pursue.
SECONDLY, the burn out.
I wasn’t fortunate enough to be in a financial spot to be able to only do this business full time.
The mass majority of the time, I also had to work nearly full time to full time.
Which meant, I was working between 50-80 hours a week.
Which I know, for some isn’t a lot.
But, I’ve talked openly about my mental health & as a girlie with a small handful of mental health issues that I have to keep in check; working 60-80 hours a week isn’t possible.
There were many times throughout my career that I chose business over my wellbeing. And although this is very common in the entrepreneur world, this wasn’t okay for me.
If you have anxiety or depression (especially depression) you know you have a lot of boxes in your day to day to tick in order to keep your mind at bay.
And although this year I finally got medicated properly (for ADHD which helped my anxiety & depression immensely), I still lacked the ability to always choose my mental health /wellbeing over business.
This could just be a personal issue that I could’ve fixed by forcing myself to take days off. But I would go literally weeks and weeks without taking a day off.
Which has caused the worst burnout.
Over the last year (all of 2024), I had tons of breakdowns due to lack of rest.
I knew I had to make a change. And quite literally have changed every aspect of my life over the last 6 months.
I’m still recovering from burn out and trying to set up my following year to literally recover & just take time for myself until I decide on my next career move.
But burnout is a very real thing that everyone should watch out for!
I still mark my calendar on days I actually take off so I can see that I’m taking a day off.
My goal this year is to actually take one full day off a week. I set up my calendar in a way that it has to happen.
Maybe these answers & reasonings weren’t what anyone expected BUT it is the honest truth as to why I choose to close my doors.
If you read all 3 posts, thank you, you’re a real one 🙏😂
Forever grateful ♥️
