04/10/2025
Part 1: Listening: Even when it goes against your identity.
Who would’ve thought turning 30 would change the direction of my life?
Well… I did. Because I knew my Saturn Return was about to enter the chat.
A few major things have happened since my 30th birthday — one being the switch from vegan to eating meat and dairy. And I’ve been thinking a lot about what that means. For my identity, for my body, for my mind, for my practice.
The conclusion I came to? The first 30 years of my life, I had to be super clean — like, only eating foods that were easy to digest. I was deep into the whole “only eat what your ancestors ate” concept. But bro… I have a mixture of different humans in my lineage. Trying to pinpoint what I’m supposed to eat based on that? Confusinggggg. So I just had to bring it back to intuition: What feels good? How is my body responding?
And when I got my blood work done as a vegan.
My doctor literally said, “I don’t understand how you’re not eating meat and (HOW ARE YOU ALIVE)... still doing so well.”
Everything was immaculate. Which, to me, proves that the intention behind why you’re doing something truly impacts how your body responds.
I’ve done all the readings, watched all the YouTubes, sat through all the think pieces — and emotionally, mentally, it’s been a journey transitioning from plant-based to eating meat. But I’ll say this: my body is grateful. I’m super strict — no hormones, no antibiotics, nothing sus, local farms only.
My body’s been soaking it all up like it’s saying, “Thank you, finally.”
It feels like I’m preparing for the next phase. The last 10 years of energy work? I don’t think I could’ve reached that level of awareness if I hadn’t been eating so clean, digesting so lightly. I can’t quite articulate it, but my knowings around sound and treatment needed that life style.
Now, as I’m exiting my Saturn Return, it’s like — no, now the body is ready for all the fats, all the proteins, all the different stuffs. And maybe this phase won’t last forever, but it feels like a necessary shift. Like a time of purification in a new way.
My body needs different things now — partly to prep for the child I’d love to have one day, to help with muscle and weight regulation.
It honestly feels like an acceleration in my health journey. Like my system’s balancing out. I still eat fruits and vegetables (obviously), but something about cream, about high protein, just hits. And amazingly, I eat less on this kind of diet — versus having to eat mountains of salad on the plant-based side. Plus, legumes and beans? Not vibing with my stomach lately.
Eating differently has also made me reflect on how it interacts with my practices — my healing, my Kundalini, my Reiki, my sound work. And I’d say… I’m better for it. Nothing’s really changed externally, but I feel more in my body.
There was a time in my early Reiki days when I was doing Reiki seven days a week, basically living off of breath and vibes. I was tiny — I’m already a small human — but back then I was floating, living off energy alone. And I know I can do that. But that’s not the vibe right now.
Now I’m about maintaining my weight — because it feels so much better to be grounded. I’m Black, which means your girl needs heat and sunlight most of the time, but with more weight on me, I don’t need as many sweaters or pantaloons (yes, pantaloons). So this journey into muscle and protein and weight gain?
Let's get it.
I honestly feel like I had to go through this transition to come back to the business and content in a new way. The business literally has the word “Embodied” in it — which means I have to embody certain things to show up how I want to.
The last two years, I’ve been doing treatments and retreats and offering services, but only by request or when it felt right — especially while balancing the build of the other companies. But now that things are a little more grounded… it feels like I can come back and share some raw truths.
