Audhd Unfiltered

Audhd Unfiltered Canadian, Autistic, ADHD, and unfiltered. Welcome into my brain and daily life

12/28/2025

Our parents are rarely bad people.
They’re often unhealed people.
People who carried their wounds for years without ever having the space or the tools to understand them.

Does that excuse toxic behavior?
Absolutely not.

But it does explain it.

And from there, we each have a role to play.

Because when someone isn’t healed inside, their brain sees life through a dark filter.
Everything they feel, everything they say, everything they do goes through unresolved pain.

They don’t control that filter as long as they don’t see it.
And we don’t control their healing either.

The only control they have is choosing to recognize that filter and wanting to remove it.
The only control we have is deciding what we do with the relationship.

Figuring out where we stand.
How far we can go without losing ourselves.

Human relationships are anything but simple.
They’re complex, layered, rarely black or white.
They’re the whole spectrum of color.

Recognizing that someone else’s pain doesn’t justify their actions is a big step toward inner peace.
But also… don’t carry resentment forever either.

Understanding doesn’t mean staying stuck.
It means choosing yourself, with clarity.

12/28/2025

Yo…

The fact that I speak well and express myself clearly does not make me “less autistic.”

I’ve literally been told things like, “You’re more neurotypical than neurodivergent, right? You speak so well, you’re very verbal.” …after a 20 minute talk.

Yes, I speak well.
Yes, I enjoy teaching and giving talks.

But HOW does speaking well erase all my daily struggles?

What people forget is that the way we speak is just the visible tip of the iceberg.
Language is not a measure of “severity” or “functioning.”
It’s just a tool.

Being able to talk about my challenges doesn’t make them lighter.
It doesn’t reduce their impact.
It doesn’t magically make my life easier.

So no.
I’m not some mix of “a little autistic, a little typical.”

I’m autistic and able to express myself.
And that’s not a contradiction.

It actually comes back to something I’ve already said…
The better you can express yourself, the more people deny your needs and your difficulties. 😢

12/27/2025

Yes, sleep is essential.
For mental health, mood, memory, emotional regulation, the immune system… basically everything.
And we know it. We hear it all the time: “Sleep is the foundation. You have to sleep.”

But here’s the thing: sleep isn’t an on off switch.

You can’t just decide to sleep.
(okay yes, some people can, and honestly I’m jealous xD)

When you have insomnia, it’s not a choice.
No one goes, “Tonight I’ll stay awake replaying my trauma and planning my entire life until 4am, sounds fun!”

And yet… there you are.
Eyes wide open while your brain runs a full marathon of thoughts, anxiety, embarrassing memories from 2012, and brilliant ideas at 3:28am.

You close your eyes, your body wants to sleep… but your brain clocks in for its night shift.

And when you finally do sleep, it’s light. Broken. Not restorative.

So yes, sleep is suuuper important.
But telling that to someone who can’t sleep is like telling someone having an anxiety attack, “Just breathe.”

We know.
But we can’t.

Sleep isn’t something you can control.
When your nervous system is in alert mode, your brain thinks you’re in danger, not in pajamas.

And the more you stress about not sleeping, the worse you sleep. Perfect vicious cycle.

What we can do is create conditions.
A gentle routine.
A calm environment.
A wind down ritual.

But those are conditions, not guarantees.

So if you struggle with sleep, know this: you’re not alone.
You’re not failing at taking care of yourself.
You’re doing the best you can with a nervous system that’s also doing the best it can.

12/27/2025

Setting boundaries isn’t selfish.
It’s not being cold, rude, or “self centered.”
It’s just thinking about yourself too, and there’s nothing wrong with that.

It’s saying, “Hey, this I’m okay with. That, I’m not.”
It’s choosing what you accept and what you let go.
It’s taking care of yourself before you’re completely drained, before you crash, before you explode.
It’s giving yourself a bit of the same kindness you give to everyone else.

But we live in a world where forgetting yourself is praised.
Where “being a good person” often means “sacrificing yourself quietly.”

So of course, when you say no, some people call it selfish.

But it’s really not.

Setting a boundary isn’t closing your heart.
It’s just building a door.
A door that opens with respect, and closes when it’s too much.

It’s not a lack of love.
It’s emotional maturity.

It’s saying, “I want to be in relationship with you, but not if it hurts me.”

And if someone calls you “selfish” or “narcissistic” for taking care of yourself, remember this says way more about their discomfort than about you.
Prioritizing yourself can feel threatening to people who’ve never learned how to do it.

But it’s not selfish.
It’s healthy.

And it’s your life.
You’re supposed to be the main character in your own story, not a background extra.

Listening to yourself isn’t wrong.
It’s respect.

And that is never toxic.

12/26/2025

Some people see their ADHD as a superpower.
Others find that idea insulting because it minimizes the real struggles.

But… why does it have to be one or the other?

I can feel like my creativity overflows, that my brain makes wild connections, that my intuition is strong.
And at the same time, I can admit that my short term memory is a complete mess, that my time management is a disaster, and that my emotions can spiral out of nowhere.

The problem isn’t saying ADHD is magical.
And it’s not saying it’s a curse either.

The problem is forcing one single narrative on everyone.

Shaming people who find beauty in their difference?
Not cool.

Denying the very real suffering of people who struggle every day?
Not any better.

Both realities exist.
Both are valid.
Both deserve to be heard.

When we deny the difficulties, we make accommodation needs invisible.
When we deny the strengths, we feed shame and discouragement.

I think we’re allowed to see our ADHD the way we actually live it.
One day at a time.
Depending on what we’re going through.

It’s not just a disability.
It’s not just a superpower.

Most of the time, it’s a weird mix of both.
And that’s okay. 💛

12/26/2025

he expression “give 110 percent” has always made me cringe.

Because it starts from the idea that your 100 percent isn’t enough.
Like your maximum is just the baseline, and you’re somehow supposed to magically pull energy out of thin air.

But… hello??

Your 100 percent is YOUR 100 percent.
It’s literally everything you have in the tank.

If you could give 110 percent, then your 100 percent was never actually your real 100 percent in the first place.
So the whole thing makes no sense.

All it does is put stupid pressure on people, set impossible standards, and send a hidden message that says: “Your best isn’t enough. You need to push harder.”

But pushing past your limits isn’t discipline.
It’s burnout dressed up as performance.

Your 100 percent today might not look like your 100 percent yesterday.
Because your energy changes.
Your stress changes.
Your life changes.

And that’s normal.

So no, you don’t have to “give 110 percent.”
You give what you have.

And that… is already a lot.

12/25/2025

People often think autistic people “just want to do things their own way.”

But… no. Not at all.

It’s just that my brain doesn’t register an instruction if I’m not given the reason behind it… or if it doesn’t make sense to me.

That’s not rebellion.
That’s not bad attitude.
That’s not a “I don’t want to.”

It’s literally… my operating system.

My autistic brain runs on logic, understanding, and meaning.
If you tell me “do this,” but you don’t explain the why, the goal, or the context, my brain files that info under “incomplete.”

And when it’s incomplete… it doesn’t stick.
It doesn’t land.
I forget it.
I don’t do it.

It’s like trying to install software without the main file.
It just doesn’t work.

And that says nothing about effort, intention, or respect.

When you give me the reason, suddenly everything lines up.
It clicks.
I see the logic.

And then I’m a hundred times more effective. And I do it.
Because it makes sense. And for an autistic person, motivation is intrinsic.

I’m not trying to be difficult.
I’m just wired to understand before executing.

That’s how my brain is coded.

12/25/2025

We really need to stop seeing the parent child relationship as a power versus powerless dynamic.
You know, the parent who “commands” and the child who “obeys.”

That’s not guidance. That’s domination.

A healthy relationship is mentor and mentee.
A parent who teaches, guides, shows the way.
Not a parent who controls, imposes, crushes, or demands silence.

Because a child isn’t a soldier.
They’re not a tiny emotional servant who has to bend just because “you’re the adult.”

A child is a human in the process of learning.
A human developing autonomy, critical thinking, self worth, and the ability to stand up for themselves.

And that only grows when a parent supports, not when they dominate.

When a parent says, “I decide. End of discussion.”
“Do it and don’t ask questions.”
“That’s how it is because I said so.”
That cuts the child off from their thinking, their voice, their sense of self.

But when a parent says, “Let me explain why.”
“Let’s figure this out together.”
“Here’s what I’ve learned, you’ll do it your own way.”
That’s mentorship.

That’s how you build a solid human.

Our job as parents isn’t to produce obedient children.
It’s to help humans become autonomous, thoughtful, and free.
Humans who trust themselves.
Humans who can say no.
Humans who understand the world without fear being the main driver.

A parent child relationship should model collaboration, not hierarchy.
A space where a child learns, not where they submit.

Power doesn’t make a good parent.
Mentorship does.

I’m not messy because I don’t care.I’m not lazy, careless, or disrespectful toward my space or the people I welcome into...
12/24/2025

I’m not messy because I don’t care.
I’m not lazy, careless, or disrespectful toward my space or the people I welcome into it.

I’m an ADHD and autistic person with a limited amount of energy.
And that energy is already fully allocated.

A big chunk goes to work, because bills don’t magically pay themselves.
Another chunk goes to recharging, because if I skip that part, I crash.
And whatever’s left… if there is any left… goes to dishes, cleaning, cooking, everything else.

But most of the time, there’s nothing left.

And for a long time, that made me feel ashamed.
Because I was scared of how people would look at me when they came over.
Because I know that for a lot of people, a messy space equals a careless person.

I’m tired of that idea.

I’m tired of apologizing with a laugh like, “haha, sorry, it’s a bit of a mess.”
Or “I was going to clean, but I ran out of time…”

No.
I ran out of capacity.

What you see in my home isn’t neglect.
It’s daily survival in a world that asks for too much.
It’s not indifference. It’s exhaustion.

People think disorganized folks just don’t care about their environment.
But often, it’s the opposite.
We’re carrying so much that there’s no strength left to carry everything.

I’m not “lazy.”
I’m just tired of pretending to be functional.

And if this sounds like you too, you don’t need shame.
You need softness.
You need understanding.
And most of all, you need people to stop judging what they don’t understand.

12/24/2025

Becoming a better human isn’t about becoming softer, more docile, more comfortable for everyone else.
It’s not about “lowering your voice,” “taking up less space,” or “pleasing at all costs.”
It’s not about turning yourself into a more polite version just to be loved.

Growing is learning how to be real.

It’s reading two pages of a book and actually stopping to ask yourself a real question after.
It’s stepping outside for five minutes just to feel the wind and remember you have a body.
It’s learning something new simply because you’re curious.
It’s looking inward without judging yourself, just trying to understand yourself better.
It’s coming back to yourself when everything around you moves too fast.
It’s recognizing your emotions instead of shoving them down.
It’s asking yourself, “Do I talk to myself the way I talk to someone I love?”

It’s setting boundaries and holding them, even when it doesn’t make everyone happy.
It’s choosing people who lift you up, not people who drain you.

Growing isn’t becoming more “perfect.”
It’s becoming more real, more aligned, more you.
Not to please. Not to perform.
But to respect yourself.

Improving yourself doesn’t mean becoming easier to love.
It means loving yourself enough to stop twisting yourself into shapes that hurt just to fit in.

That’s growth.
Not smoothing yourself out.
Finding yourself again.

12/23/2025

Someone slid into my DMs today to drop a link to a neuropsych article that supposedly “explains” how autism could be preventable or treatable.

I didn’t read it.
Not because I’m scared of information, but because I know exactly how it would’ve made me feel. And honestly, I didn’t have the energy for that today.

Also… I’m very skeptical of single studies.
We already lived through a time where “a study” claimed vaccines caused autism. That was debunked over and over again. Science isn’t always as neutral as we like to think. Funding comes from somewhere. Research has angles. Sometimes conclusions are being looked for in advance.

So yeah. One single study, in my book, doesn’t mean much.

I replied that I find the idea of “preventing” or “eradicating” autism deeply problematic.

Their response?
A bunch of “????”, a “good luck”, and then a block.

Okay.

Look. I’m autistic too.
Diagnosed at 41. I’ve been through a lot of crap. I still am. I know very well that life would be easier if I weren’t autistic. A lot of us think that sometimes.

But wanting to go in the direction of making what’s inconvenient disappear?
That’s dangerous.
That’s getting uncomfortably close to eugenics. And we need to be very careful there.

My goal isn’t to eliminate autism.
It’s to learn how to love ourselves with our differences.
And to build a world that actually makes space for varied, living, imperfect, colorful humans.

Not everyone the same.
Not everyone blond with blue eyes.

If you know what I mean...

12/23/2025

One of the most liberating things I’ve allowed myself to stop masking since my diagnosis is letting myself move to my music… even in public.

I sway. I dance. I lip sync. I tap the beat.
And honestly, who cares if people think I’m weird. It feels good, and I’m having fun 😎

And the more we do it, the more visible it becomes… and the less weird it feels to others.

And who knows!
Maybe it’ll even give someone else permission to let go a little too ^^

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