05/15/2025
A dream is coming true today... I am taking my first steps as a "writer". Or maybe the more accurate way to say it is I am writing again. If you have been following my journey lately, you know that I have started to share my life experiences as a member of "The Lost Generation" (If you know you know ADHD/AUTISM - LIfe on the spectrum) and healing from C-PTSD.
Being vulnerable is not always easy, and sharing your truth is often embarrassing and difficult. Living in truth after spending your life wearing masks, is not an easy path, but the rewards outweigh any negatives. It is difficult for me to see my worth sometimes and old insecurities pop up every now and again. Learning that my story is mine to tell and share, finding my voice that was silenced, has transformed my relationships and my life.
Sharing my truth publicly is a new endeavour... and I often have doubts if my story is "special" enough? Or I go back to old thought patterns of people-pleasing and giving weight to other people's opinions about me and my life.
I am thankful to God for the signs he sends me daily, the message of KEEP GOING, this is the path you are supposed to be on, I feel this in my soul. Whenever I start to doubt my worth, or the thoughts and worries start to swirl in my brain.-(about the risks and ramifications of sharing my story), I simply take a deep breath and remind myself that as long as I am living in truth, the rest is just noise trying to distract me from my dharma, my vocation, my first love... writing.
I have committed (to myself and to my subscribers) to write weekly posts about my personal healing journey and today my first paid post will be published. (9AM) The best part so far in this new endeavour, is the connections it has created and is creating. People are coming up to me and sharing their own vulnerabilities and desires for healing. This is happening almost daily, and usually when I least expect it. (stay tuned for my reflections on this). When this occurs I am reminded of the lesson I have learned.. EVERYBODY HAS A STORY. We are all just looking for a safe place to share it, learn from it and each other and HEAL.
You can't make this S**T up! (signs are everywhere - KEEP GOING)
This week I have had some moments of insecurity as I create and plan for my first paid publication, AM I GOOD ENOUGH? Is my story special enough for people to pay $ to read it... and in the last 24 hours these moments happened, they are clear signs to me - to KEEP GOING, KEEP WRITING.
I woke up early at a hotel, so I went to the lobby to get coffee and not wake up my family. I worked on my next publication and was truly lost in my own little world. At some point, a man who must have been observing me, asked "Are you a writer?" - I cannot express how this question resonated to me... my first instinct was to say "no I am a school counsellor, or teacher" but I caught myself and said.. "well yes... i guess I am." and just like that I have a new "label", which just happens to be the topic for this week's post.
3 people from my past reached out to tell me they have been reading and following and asked how to start their healing journey.
My husband who is my support, but has moments of concern (for me) about the risks of sharing publicly.. without a second thought - said "That's something you should write about for your readers"
A friend introduced me to her cousin, (complete stranger) who after the pleasantries of introductions said to me, I have seen your stuff on social media and I connect with it, I cannot wait for your next story... she used the word story... I am a writer in her eyes...
And so today marks the day, where I stand up for myself, and my right to write... even if my posts are never read and they just become a personal journey.. I will keep writing because it is healing my soul.
If you are interested in reading my stuff - and/or want to support me ($5 bucks) on this next adventure jump over and join me on SUBSTACK or read my public posts on our website. regardless if you read to this point - I THANK YOU.
Unmasking…. Everybody has a story
My journey of healing, It has beauty and horror in it. Most of my life I believed I was broken at the core...facing trauma, disabilities, living in truth, speaking my truth... Finding ME - by removing one mask at a time. Click to read Unmasking, by Heather Dianne, a Substack publication. Launched 18...
