
04/07/2025
“I’m tired of feeling like I need a break; From running in circles and losing my pace; I should be healing, but I feel the same; Guess it’s never gonna go away.”
I will start this out by saying I am good folks. When I first wanted to write this, that’s a different story…
This song man, this fu***ng song. Do you ever listen to a song and just feel deep in your very core that this song was made for you, about you? Almost most like self-reflection from the eyes and mouth of another? This song does that for me. I have been very open with all of you that follow me on the socials, but full honesty: I haven’t truly let myself completely be shown. Why? Because I’m fu***ng scared of it. I am scared of myself. I have been for years. So, I get numb and go through my days being an overly helpful type of person because I never EVER want anyone to feel how I have/do feel on a constant basis. And if that means holding that door, chatting with a random stranger or even smiling at a passerby when I feel like a slight breeze will shatter my entire being into a million pieces.
That being said, I will always be there for someone in need. For someone who needs to air their s**t out. I will hold that burden to lighten the load as best I can. I do this because I know I can handle it for you. Living in a state like this for a long time, probably longer than I am aware, I have developed quite the resiliency. As much as I hate it, it comes in handy. So lay your worries on me, I will help you hold them until you can hold them yourself.
A Little Too Late by Nate Vickers found me at the time I needed the most. I haven’t dove too far into his music but I do feel like I may need to. I can’t find too much info on the guy at this point other than he is from Houston, Texas. Give him a listen. It may be exactly what you need.
Cheers. I love you all.