01/27/2026
One year ago today something took place that would change my life forever.
For many years I had been fed this narrative that Christianity=religion and religion=control, rules, fitting into a box, an expectation of perfectionism and women being controlled by men. What I didn't know about was relationship. When I learnt about what it meant to have a relationship with Jesus, I realized that this was exactly what I had been seeking for many years. Just a few months prior to this life changing day I was looking for ways to get to know my spirit guides and teachers and then I encountered the Holy Spirit and my entire life changed.
On January 26th of 2025 with shaking knees and tears streaming down my face, I invited Jesus into my heart. I was so emotional because I was confused and afraid but the beauty of duality is that I also felt a freedom and sense of peace that I had never experienced before come over me. I felt like God was wrapping me in the most comforting hug and whispering in my ear, "it's okay, I've got you."
I was still skeptical and fearful for a long time. I had a lot of questions and my curiousity would keep me awake at night. I started reading and studying the Bible, praying, asking questions, listening to worship music and going to church.
Slowly I felt less afraid, less comfused and less anxious. Tiny roots started to grow and as time went on they grew deeper and got stronger. As the roots grew, so did my faith and my relationship with God.
Being a follower of Jesus does not mean life is easy or that there are no challenges or that life is perfect because that is absolutely not true. But every valley I go through, I have God to lean on and his guidance to seek. I'm not doing it alone. I'm still working on trusting him completely. It's in our human nature to think we can do things in our own strength but we cannot, we need God. We were created in his image and designed to be in relationship with him. Thank God that his mercies are new every morning, because some days it's easy to fall into trying to do things on my own and screw it all up! My prayers lately have been all about trust and those roots of faith growing deeper.
I could write for hours telling you about all the things that have changed in my life this past year, all the ways I have grown and changed as a wife and a mother, the things I have removed from my life, the blessings that have been poured in and how I ended up going to Church for the first time as a skeptic.
But I'll just leave you with this, life is so much better with Jesus ✝️
2 Corinthians 5:17
This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun!
