08/04/2025
🫂🗣️Major Depressive Disorder
🖤 This isn’t just a bad day. This is depression.
The kind that steals your energy, your joy, your ability to care about anything
Yes, even the things you love.
Major Depressive Disorder isn’t just “feeling down.” It’s your brain turning down the brightness on everything. I’ve often described it as a light dimmer. It’s like somebody has turned down the light… dimmed It..
Sleep, appetite, motivation, emotions ..it all gets blurry and heavy. The burden. The worry of having to tell someone new what you’re going through.
You can say “oh I’m sorry I’m having depression right now” But nobody really seems to understand.
I understand and I know how isolating it feels
What depression can look like 🖤
It can look like:
• Sleeping all day but never feeling rested 😴
• Not answering phone calls
• Not showering, barely brushing your teeth
• Listening to the same song over and over again because it’s the only thing that you can relate to
• Wanting to hide or disappear
• Crying for no reason — or not feeling anything at all
• Feeling worthless, foggy, tired, and disconnected
• Not even having the energy to explain what’s wrong 🫥
• kind of ghosting people because, you don’t have the energy to explain what’s wrong and you’re afraid that their response might even make it worse 
It’s a deep ache.. can even feel similar to deep grief like when someone you love has died ,
the kind that sits in your chest like cement.
It feels like it’ll never go away. Like you’ll be stuck in it forever. Like something’s wrong with you.
But nothing is “wrong” with you. You’re just hurting.
If you’ve worked through this before, you know it will pass, but it doesn’t make it any easier. It is helpful to have the knowledge that you know it will pass eventually.. and when you have the tools, sometimes you can cycle through it a little bit quicker.. and sometimes you can’t. Please hang in there though.
The sun will shine once again, even though it’s brightly shining outside today.
🖤 hmm..Is this even depression?
If this has been going on most days for more than two weeks, it’s not “just a funk.”
It might be depression. And it’s more common than people realize.
❗Real Talk:
Depression lies.
It says you’re lazy.
It says no one cares.
It says nothing will change.
you think people will stop caring about you
you will think people will judge you
Or maybe they will leave you..
And honestly, if they do, we can let them go. A lot of people are ignorant and they don’t wanna learn about it. That’s not your fault. This is very real. Its a very real condition and you’re not crazy 🤪
And the hardest part?
People can’t see it. There’s no cast, no bruises, no obvious signs. So they don’t always understand how serious it is — or how much strength it takes just to shower, send a text, or sit upright, to make a post about it..
💔 Depression doesn’t discriminate.
It can affect anyone — no matter how strong, successful, or “put together” they seem.
It doesn’t always look like sadness. Sometimes it just looks like silence. Or isolation. Or going through the motions.
Sometimes it looks like laughter around the dinner table…
✨ I know how hard it is when you feel like you can’t tell anyone.
When you feel like a burden just for existing.
I’ve been there myself.
It’s a difficult journey — but it can be navigated.
One step, one conversation, one breath at a time.
You don’t have to earn rest.
You don’t have to prove your pain.
You don’t have to do it alone. 🫶
If this post speaks to you, please know:
You’re not weak. You’re not broken.
You’re just tired. You’ve been strong for too long.
And help does exist — therapy, support, connection, maybe meds.
You matter. You’re not alone. ❤️
ee eed e yos
