05/27/2025
If I were to try and describe what it feels like to know I’m turning 50 tomorrow, I don’t think I quite have the words.
My emotions are on overload.
When I look back at my life there are aspects that don’t feel like they happened. It feels like another lifetime that I was her. The extremely shy, broken, people pleasing, scared young woman.
How in my 50 years have I transitioned this many times? How did I overcome so much?
When I stand in who I am now and look back at my lifeline, I should be so proud of the way I healed and continue to heal my deepest core wounds. But here I am, the last day of my 40’s having moments of disabling fear.
Will I accomplish all of the goals I have set up for myself? Will I have enough energy in this aging menopausal body to express what I want to share with the world? These symptoms are no joke, I honour the women before me that have persevered!
My goal for my 50th year, piece by piece, I’ll begin sharing my story from the beginning, in hopes of reaching just one person and inspiring them to keep going. I have fallen down so many times, I have stood back up and continued fighting, I will continue to do just that.
Today I have to look fear in the face and instead of curling up in bed and hiding under the covers I will make peace with this fear and allow it to propel me up another rung of my spiritual practice.
I will not allow the fear of age to spiral me into the what ifs. Instead, I will look back at the masterpiece of my timeline and align with the incredible amount of wisdom I hold and embody this new spiritual cycle with Grace, Power and Love.
During this New Moon in Gemini, I am nurturing the seeds of my dreams, conjuring the desires of my heart and declaring this next cycle to be the best yet.
I am WIDE open to the new trajectory of my timeline, crowning myself with the permission to be 100% true, sacred, fierce and all the while holding tenderness and love at the core of my being.
To any and all who have followed my journey, thank you. Thank you for all the support, encouragement, love and belief in my work and the belief in me as a sacred soul living in this human experience. I love you all and hope you stick around for what’s next!