Broken Roads

08/30/2021

Lightbulb reflection:
Dad speaks Choleric (control) while I hear Phlegmatic (peace). He is speaking in love, while I am hearing in pain.
Dad say "show me loyalty", I hear control and feel unworthy. Dad loves, I feel conditions.
Dad never once said anything that I believed. I believed that I was: worthless, invisible, unimportant, not needed nor worthy of respect nor even time.
Dad spoke love as well as he knew and understood. I could not hear anything he said, because all I knew was what I felt.
Because I felt "this", "that" is what I heard. The more I heard it, the more I believed it, until I knew what I knew; and then, I stopped listening and only heard what I accepted as true - I "found" proof in others to support my beliefs about myself. From that belief I treated others because I knew the "truth".
I believed in pain, not love. I believed in conditions, not unconditional. I believed in control, not support. I believed in work, not acceptance, I believed in being unlovable, not wanted.

I believed a lie, not the truth.

How about you? What do you believe? What do you know?

08/15/2021

Food for thought....

"I am happy because I want nothing from anyone. I do not care about money. Decorations, titles or distinctions mean nothing to me. I do not crave praise. I claim credit for nothing. A happy man is too satisfied with the present to dwell too much on the future.

Albert Einstein

08/05/2021

When you fall and get back up, you have NOT failed.

08/03/2021

The single greatest thing that we have lost in today's world is appreciation.
We are striving for something greater, something better, something big that will make life better or at least more bearable.
What we don't have is appreciation for what we have now, until we no longer have it ... family (divorce), loved ones (death), work (laid off), breathing (covid), health (accident), watching a sunrise (blinded), and the list goes on....
What are you taking for granted today?

When do you want to appreciate it? Now or after you loose it?

08/03/2021

There is no Grace in anger, just as there is no anger in Grace.
How much Grace do you live in?

07/30/2021

As I see it ....
Those simple words change an absolute reality (that could very well be false or wrong) into a perspective that is personal to you.
Take a look at all of your beliefs, thoughts and actions that cause troubles when discussing with others and insert before them "as I see it". See how much calmer talking to others can become.
Instead of right vs. wrong in discussion, you can now discuss differences in relation and relationship.

07/26/2021

It has been said that life is a journey. As with all journey's there are high mountaintop moments and low valley moments....
The mountain view is amazing and celebrated, both alone and with others... The valleys however are very much alone...
The valleys are also the only place that wisdom is found.
Stop dreading the valley journey and seek the wisdom found there and you will find fear blows away with the wind.

07/19/2021

Doing without knowing why is like cattle, is religion, is slavery.
A bond servant is a willing, eager servant to/for someone loved and trusted.
I have spent my life blindly doing... hoping to earn love and acceptance... to one day find my reason.
I am my own reason. I am love created.
So are you.

07/17/2021

07/16/2021

What is an opinion worth?

An opinion from others is either truth or false. If it is false, what is the problem?
Your opinion of me is NONE OF MY BUSINESS.

When the opinion is based on fact and truth there is the bigger problem. You are either willing to know yourself and seriously look and consider yourself to find ways to better yourself - no problem.

OR

You have "no problems" and then, in truth, you ARE the problem (usually with a problem that others can see).

How do you handle opinions?

07/16/2021

07/16/2021

Taste your tears.
I have cried and wept bitterly, always wiping away my tears in anguish, anger or even in defeat, resignation and denial.
Until today they have not flown freely down my cheek, unashamedly so that I could taste my tears.
God catches every tear. Why?
Because blood is life for the body, but tears are life from the heart.

Only a feeling heart truly weeps.

07/16/2021

Lord, grant me the strength to be weak and in my weakness to be true and real...
Now look at yourself.