05/11/2026
The last few weeks have felt heavy, especially leading up to Mothers Day & my moms birthday. I've been trying my best to practice what I tell others: slow down, rest, take time to feel your feelings, and find things that bring you joy as well. We can't live in the hard spots, and we also can't ignore them either, not forever anyway.
The last few years I've been processing some extremely traumatic things from my childhood, and the last few weeks I got to some of the core moments of it. In the long run it's a good thing, I'm processing them to heal and move on. But it's been tough on my body, and my heart both. Especially happening alongside the epstein files release, (and witnessing the speed at which so many moved on,) it's scary and difficult to publicly talk about being survivor of SA & CSA. So I've avoided it. But this weekend I posted a vulnerable post and was reminded of the tremendous impact on the people who've been through similar things. So here I am, facing that fear.
Alongside all that processing I've been on a mission to really lean into the silly, whimsical joyful s**t around me- or create it myself. (like the first two pictures, how freaking CUTE are those?!) Learning about the plants popping up in the yard, picnics in the hammock, building garden beds and working on our indoor and outdoor spaces.
Two things can be true: I can be the happiest I've ever been in my life, and be shedding some difficult things. I love where I live, and I love our home in all it's renovation stages, I love my community I've been creating and nurturing, I love my job, and I love my friends - the new and the old friends.
I feel simultaneously like the luckiest person in the world, and like I truly cannot understand how I lived through all I went through.
Here's what my ask: in the comments write all the things that brought you silly, loving, whimsical joy lately.