02/15/2024
Celebrating 18 months AF 🎊🎉🥳🎊🎉
The road is long With many a winding turn That leads us to who knows where Who knows where But I'm strong Strong enough to carry...on...
I could write a book...and maybe one day I just might do that!
Just for today 🙏
I'll share a small piece of my story...
I couldn't do it alone! OH, I tried, dammit you know I tried!?!...and tried again and again and 🤦♀️
It's taken many years and visits to healers and counselors and doctors and online meetings and meetings and courses and talking and listening and crying and screaming with friends and family and people in recovery 🙃
I lost friendships and have had to move through and process the loss and grief 😔
It took me relapsing 3 times before I couldn't bare the pain 💔 any longer...until my soul took me to the deepest darkest depths of my soul and said...HELL o, stay here awhile 🖤
It's been unlearning and untangling 💫 rewiring and rebuilding the fragmented 💥 parts of myself to come back to ME...my true essence, my whole-ness 💖 It still is and will continue to be a work I progress ⚒️
I recently received sad news of an old friend who passed away 😢 She had been suffering from this horrible dis-ease for years. I had cut ties with her because her suffering hurt my heart ❤️🩹 I tried reconnecting again with her in the summer of 2022 and just couldn't go there as I was on my path of recovery and discovery and nothing had changed. Nothing changes if nothing changes...I had an overwhelming sense of guilt for a brief moment and then caught myself. I have learned that I can't save anyone or everyone. We each have to do our own inner excavating and save our own asses. And I've said it before...it's not for the feint of heart but it's worth it!!!!!
I'm a better person, mother, daughter, meme and friend.
I sleep better, feel better, live and love better.
I got out of my own way and I can look at myself in the mirror🪞and smile at the reflection I see 🤗
Like the lotus flower 🪷 rising from a dark place into beauty and rebirth ✨️
A dear friend sent me a note that warmed my heart...
Thank you for recovering out loud and congrats on your amazing grace 💖
If you need me, I'll be there
