Soul Healing Artist

05/20/2025

Sometimes in this life we are asked to do very hard things. If we are asked to experience something it means we can trust there is a reason- a lesson. This can bring a great deal of peace.

We might not understand why or what the lesson was until much later- but we can have faith that we have the means to succeed- no matter what the challenge or trial is.

10/03/2024

Lately I’ve been trying to prioritize healing my body- losing some weight that has crept up on me, making better food choices to help with inflammation & gut health and trying to get better quality & quantity of sleep.

I’m also trying to learn more about balancing hormones & resetting my nervous system, as well as better practices in caring for my (aging) skin.

One of the challenges has been listening to my body when it tells me I need to just rest. Rest Mode has always been difficult for me - one of my patterned behaviours is that there is always a task that needs to be done. There is always work that can be accomplished & that Rest = Being Lazy.

It’s taken so concerted effort on my part to re-train my brain to understand that I am better served at accomplishing all the tasks if I am healthy & well rested… and sometimes that means just allowing your body time to not be responsible for anything.

I recently had my 2nd carpal tunnel surgery & had time booked off for recovery. With the first surgery- I found it very difficult to just rest - I felt compelled to try to get things done.

This time - I forced myself to take the time. I listened to my body. I found some old movies on a hard drive that I hadn’t watched in years. I spent time at the beach just watching the waves, enjoying the sunshine & fresh air.

It felt very uncomfortable- until I allowed myself to surrender to the notion that it was okay to slow down, rest & recover.

I feel like there’s still a long way to go in terms of restoring / achieving all levels of health but I’m grateful I had the opportunity to engage in this Slow Down/Self Care exercise. I’m thankful I took the time my body needed.

09/07/2024

For 2024 I have been allowing myself to review & process the events that occurred during the 2020 shutdown of the pandemic that resulted in a mental health crisis that led to a family court case in which I temporarily lost custody of my 2 children (now 15 & 12).

It’s been painful - mentally reliving the choices I was making during that timeframe. I even been able to briefly review the video footage I have - but usually can only look at the thumbnails on the hard drive.

I ended up having to take down a lot of the things I had posted while in that state. It was embarrassing to realize what people in my real life were viewing about me - simply because I lacked the mental clarity to know those things should not have been made public. I apologize if you had ever tuned into one of my IG Lives- I imagine it was really cringy.

By this time in 2020 I had already made the decision to wean down the amount of cannabis I had been using, as well as tapering down alcohol & my antidepressants/anti-anxiety meds. I was striving for full mental clarity. (I began the weaning process in August of 2020)

There was a verbal agreement with my ex & I - it was my understanding he would take on more parenting time while I restored my mental health & then we would return to our 50/50 shared duties.

However- in a surprise turn of events I was served on Oct 16 & lost custody on Oct 27, 2020… 2 days away from my full sobriety date. I was shocked & confused as to why- “Why now? When I’m better… why would a legal case be necessary??”

The positive side to this painful experience is the realization that healing is possible- that change & growth are very real options & that we are never resigned to the former versions of ourselves. We can always evolve.

I have gratitude for that experience- as painful as it was to endure 937 days (2.56 years) before custody & deciding rights were restored- that was the length of time & the exact set of circumstances it took to curate version of myself that exists today.

The strength I have now is the direct result of that particular Refiner’s Fire.

I’m thankful. 💖

06/29/2024

What things bring you Daily Happiness?

05/04/2024

Challenges come into our lives to demonstrate levels of courage & strength we didn’t know we had access to.

We can keep going- trusting that if it’s happening, it had a purpose.

One of the greatest blessings of a Spiritual Awakening & Awareness is the option to live in “Observance Mode”.

I recognize that I Am an Eternal Soul that is simply having a Human Experience for the purpose of Soul Growth.

This makes it easier to endure the challenges brought on by Humanity & allows me to Keep Going when things are difficult.

I remind myself that I Am strong enough & that it will all be okay.

06/25/2023

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