Terrins journey

01/29/2025

My psychiatrist has taken me off Va**um and put me on adivan.

Am I supposed to taper? They just seem to of cut me off and Gave me a 30 day supply of adivan instead.

01/23/2025

I don't talk about this much but I'm finally ready.
On the left is a picture of me in an active post partum psychosis.
I was so fu***ng numb.
I was so paranoid to the point I was in visioning going out the window with taylin to save him from this world. I seeked help a couple weeks after this picture was taken.
I was hurting myself and not connecting with taylin as a mother.
I was admitted to 4d north (psych ward) at the regonional hospital for a month
I was put on a new medicine called ambilify via injections and pill form and Va**um.
It worked for me and 2 years later I've had no issues other then weight gain.
I had to have visits in the hospital with my son supervised for a month.
I had to miss out on his life for a whole month. But it was worth it. I got a few new diagnosis called borderline personality disorder, post partum psychosis, post partum depression ontop of the complex ptsd, anxiety & depression disorders. It was helpful knowing I was suffering and not alone.
I am so angry I let myself suffer with the post partum psychosis for so long. I had info to watch out for post partum depression and anxiety but no knowledge of post partum psychosis.
I was robbed of tays first few months due to this as I only have pictures and fb memories to go back on.

The next video is me only 3 weeks after taking ambilify and learning to love my son properly and naturally.

If you think your suffering from post partum anything but mainly psychosis please reach out to me ! I am an open book.
It felt like a drug induced psychosis but without the drugs.
Symptoms for me were hallucinations, intrusive thoughts, being very paranoid.

11/27/2024

Hi everyone.

I am still off methadone and I.v drug use.

I am back on benzos and have been for a while. It's okay to ask for help when needed.

I just thought I'd share where I'm at currently.

Xoxo Terrin

09/14/2024

I hit 5 years off methadone and i.v drug use !! Thanks everyone for the support

05/15/2024

So proud of myself!

The quiet of the night, when most of the world is asleep, can be an especially challenging time – with thoughts wandering to places of uncertainty, struggling mental health, and feeling overwhelmed by life, the residents of My Place can take comfort in the fact that a friendly face and supportive presence isn’t hard to find.

Our overnight support staff, Terrin, offers more than just a listening ear – she creates a safe space for individuals to feel heard and valued, comforted and empowered. Terrin brings a unique perspective that resonates deeply with those who come to her for support; in this shared understanding, she creates a welcoming place for others to be understood. Her authenticity and non-judgmental attitude pave the way for others to open up, knowing they will be met with compassion and acceptance.

Whether it’s through a reassuring smile, an encouraging word, or simply the knowledge of her presence, the residents of My Place always feel more at peace knowing Terrin is around to provide solace and reassurance in the dark of the night.

Congratulations Terrin on your one-year anniversary – thank you for being the guiding light helping others navigate the darkness with understanding and grace.

02/27/2024

(Momma Crystal) this girl is being far to humble!! She understands recovery is not a straight line therefore no longer gets frustrated or feel less of a human because this s**t is HARD!
She's a single momma to one of the happiest toddlers she is mom first providing and taking care of all of his needs. Protective AF with that boy , so look out!
She has a full time job as a peer support for women who have struggled and continue to struggle but learning how recovery is going to work for her.
She is participating in a focus group of her peers tmrw to discuss her experiences navigating a very broken system and how to make things better.
This woman is changing minds of so many closed minded people when it comes to addiction.
She is pretty frigging amazing!

02/22/2024

Hey guys.

I'm still doing great. My doctor took me off most of my meds and I'm working full time.

Thanks for the support xo

09/30/2023

i made it to 4 years off methadone and i.v drug use guys!!

08/12/2023

08/02/2023

I was at My sickest Here on the left...and no one but my family knew.
This was me at 119 pounds freshly out of a very abusive relationship.
I was still on methadone but little did I know about a month later I'd be returning my methadone and kicking it cold turkey.

I love bragging about myself because I just want to help one person know they can too