10/13/2025
Happy Thanksgiving to all of our friends and family!
When 2025 started, life sure looked very different. My kidneys were still holding on to 13%- 14% function, I felt lost, stuck in some limbo hell of battling between my brain - who wanted experiences and to travel, show Sofia what the world has to offer and just not be limited by my illness, and my body - who wanted nothing to do with any of that.
Then came the drop in function, which increased the urgency to book the surgeons. The fear of the surgery itself, the fear of the post surgery which held a lot of unknowns. Would the kidney work? Would my body reject? The pain, from phantom kidneys or incision pain. The mental anguish of being cut open, down my entire torso and how I'll view myself with a giant scar. The week before transplant was spent beating my brain with worry, and to look back on that now, it was torture and unnecessary. I've seen first hand what the transplant experience looks like. I'm not the first in my family to transplant, and you know what else? I probably won't be the last either.
Its been a really eye opening experience, to say the least. Post transplant, there's clarity. I view myself stronger and while at the moment I'm incredibly weak, the point is that every day is better than the one before it. I'm just happy that my gut isn't protruding out anymore, that was really hard to accept mentally after delivering Sofia at 25 weeks, this giant gut and questions from the peanut gallery about why I look pregnant when I'm not. If there's one thing that I've learned from all of this, it's that PKD is not for the faint of heart.
In true Holly fashion, I still have more to say, so I'll move onto that now.
I'm thankful to be where I am sitting today. Thankful to have the people i have in my life, walking alongside me through this journey. Thankful to be able to care about people and be cared about too. Thankful to be able to eat a delicious meal and enjoy it without not being able to breathe because my abdomen is so packed with organs and cysty kidneys that nothing can expand. And I guess, just thankful to be alive to be able to celebrate these things with my loved ones for years to come.
I hope you all enjoy your day and also take some time to reflect on why you're thankful today. ๐ซถ๐
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