07/12/2023
In March, my mama's health started seriously declining. I was lucky to be able to be there for her while managing to keep working during her hospital stay and later when she went into hospice, facilitating from the hospital cafeteria, sneaking out to take client phone calls in the hallway, and even bussing from London to do client sessions in Sarnia.
My mom fought hard. She held on to life for us.
On July 18th, at 11:15pm my mama passed a became our ancestor. The longest on-call of my life ended that night.
I kept working for as long as I could and the truth is now that my mama is gone, I'm having a hard time getting back to functioning. I've lost my biggest supporter, whom I went to share ideas, to debrief, and ask for help.
My work as a doula and current financial situation make it impossible for me to take any more time off. The last 4 months have been immensely traumatic, seeing my mother fade away and supporting my son through the loss of his grandma are the hardest things I have ever had to do.
I'm worried about not being able to take this time, about having to push past the grief and ending up in a burnout that I can't get back from.
I'm requesting you all's support as I need to temporarily step back from my work. I'm on call starting September, and my hope would be to be able to take the rest of July & August to heal and support my son before he enters 1st grade.
Any funds will be used to cover our basic needs (bills, transport, groceries), and to access holistic care for my health.
We have also been dreaming about an inflatable kayak (~$300), I don't drive and our current financial situation makes any trips/vacations difficult, a kayak would make it possible for us to escape in nature in an accessible way.
If you have the means to offer your support, I can accept e-transfers and PayPal to javi@theradiantdoula.ca There is also a "support me" Square link in my bio.
I appreciate every one of you that has offered words of support and advice, dropped off food, or has already sent funds to get me through this time.
The last 3 weeks have been so hard, but they would have been a lot harder without you all. Thank you.