07/24/2025
Moving and Groovin from yesterday! (Some of it anyways)
The road to CariWest is in fulllllll swing and it's getting soooooo cloooooose!!!!! 🔥🔥🔥
The vibes in the gym and the workouts themselves have shifted to focus on all the jumping, moving, shaking, winding, grinding, dancing and generally energy expenditure that will be The CariWest Parade, come Aug 9! 🔥💪🏾🔥👑
PSSSSSST!!
😮💨😮💨😮💨
Down there!!!!
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(TLDR)
Putting down sports and athletics has meant really shifting how I set goals for myself both in and outside of the gym. FINDING something to train for, or should I say...
LEARNING to train for an aesthetic(as a model), as a recovering childhood trauma survivor who ate his feelings and still suffers from body dysmorphia along his journey...
Has proven irritating... To say the least😂😂
I have been trying to "avoid" something rather than go AFTER the thing I want. And while there is a time for caution, I actually let doubt creep in, and turn to fear.
I've doubted my own healing, my own growth and my own work!! The OLD me for sure would have let training for an aesthetic become an addiction, and/or toxic!
But I haven't been him in a VERY long time, and though I'm grateful for everything he did to survive... I have to learn some new tricks, some new tools, some new spaces to utilize!
We all do!
(THIS is what I mean when I say "healing isn't linear", we are CONSTANTLY healing, growing and evolving)
If you made it this far, I appreciate you! I say all that above as a reminder. If you feel stuck in your own way... You're absolutely right! But that doesn't doing what you HAVE done to get out of it... You're gonna have to learn some new ways, new coping mechanisms... New avenues to set goals 😉
YOU'VE GOT THIS!!
And I'll see some of y'all AUGUST 9th 🇯🇲👑🔥
As always,
I love you.
Ethan💚
