01/15/2025
Hello 2025!
The depth of winter is here, inviting me to slow down, tune in and go on this inward discovery.
When I have a few moments to myself, I realize how burnt out I am. I am so exhausted! And while I have felt similar in the past, this parenthood exhaustion is a whole other level. On days where it's truly bad, I notice a reoccurring thought and dream that continues to show up: a vivid vegetable garden, lots of bright and colourful flowers, native plants and tons of space for wildlife to make this place their permanent home. I feel EXCITED and a zest of life flowing through me. Something I haven't felt so vividly in a long time...
We've begun tending to the land: clean up. SO MUCH TRASH left behind by previous tenants/owners. Honestly, it's SHAMEFUL and absolutely DISGUSTING. It's disappointing and strenuous work, but a very necessary job. We feel deeply obligated to see this land for its worth and support it best we know how to.
While we're outside, cleaning up, planning the garden, playing with our child... every now and then I get this 'sensation', 'feeling', 'hint', 'intuition' ... as if someone is tapping my shoulder: it's the trees. I just know it. They see us as we see them. We've started conversations with them, have introduced ourselves and are getting to know each other β‘
We've planted our first seeds, including some native species. And while I have no idea if they will take and if the soil our home was constructed on will even be suitable habitat for these native species, I have to at least try. Currently, these seeds are 'stratifying' (enduring cold to be able to germinate). This process of 'stratification' has been occupying my being a lot too. Maybe I am currently stratifying as well: enduring a prolonged period of hardship in order to come (back) to life.
I absolutely love plant themes and how we can utilize what we observe and merely understand to bring about peace and healing into our own lives.
The trees, plant life and seeds around my home might be less active or even dormant and hibernating... but they are CALLING me.
And I have to listen!
Excited to see what this year continues to offer!