08/07/2025
I was your doula before you were even born.
I prayed over you, hoped for you, and eagerly anticipated your arrival so excited for your parents, who had waited so long for this moment. Their journey through fertility was one I understood deeply. I knew what this meant. What you meant.
Seven months with you is not a small thing. It’s been everything.
I’m going to miss you all.
I’ll miss our cuddles.
The songs I sang to you while rocking you to sleep.
The silly updates I shared with you about my life, like you were my tiny confidant.
Wiping your tears, changing your diapers, holding you through teething, witching hours, and leaps until suddenly, you were smiling, laughing, almost crawling, and sleeping on your own.
I watched you grow. I watched your parents grow too into such incredible, loving people who opened their hearts and home to me. They let me in. They let me stay. They let me love you.
And now, as this chapter ends, my heart aches.
Because goodbye… hurts.
This one cuts deeper than I expected.
I know we’re told not to get attached but this was different.
7 months of memories, love, learning, and growing together.
Just like Mary Poppins, I know when it’s time to move on.
Another family is calling on me a family that can’t yet see the light at the end of the tunnel. A family that’s barely holding it together through sleepless nights, emotional overwhelm, and a sense of hopelessness.
This is what being a doula means.
It means leading with love, and leaving little pieces of my heart behind wherever I go.
It means showing up in the shadows and offering light, calm, peace tools and strategies when everything feels like it’s falling apart.
Whether it’s breastfeeding, colic, developmental leaps, witching hours, or just pure exhaustion… I’ve been called to be a safe place, a soft landing, and a steady hand.
Today, on my drive home, I couldn’t help but reflect.
I won’t be making this drive again.
I won’t be giving my nightly updates anymore.
So I gave three extra big hugs as I said goodbye.
I whispered to you all one last time,
“I’ll miss you. And you are so, so loved.”
You're going to have a beautiful life, little ones.❤️