03/06/2024
A year ago today - March 6th 2023 at age 40, I was diagnosed with Diabetes. This is my journal entry from that day:
“So I just received the news that I am technically pre-diabetic. This news is sitting with me not in a good way. It is scaring me, it is making me feel sad, full of shame and not worthy. I cannot believe this is where I am nor can I believe I allowed myself to get to this point. In a million years I never imagined myself in this position, but here I am. What do I do now? What are my next steps? How do I “come back” from this. How do I take responsibility and make the change I know how to make? How do I take control of the food I eat and not the other way around? How do I let myself have love? How do I show myself self love and humility. What are some steps I can take to make life better? What can I do to make the transition I have to make easier? What can I do to make positive changes? I should list some change I can make right away!!!
1. Cut out alcohol
2. No eating after dinner
3. No fast food
4. Drastically reduce the sugar I eat
5. Increase water consumption
6. Reduce the amount of cannabis
7. Journal everyday
8. Walk everyday in the morning
9. Walk at night
10. Stretch regularly to stay limber
I feel that if I can start making some of these changes right away I will have a better chance of beating this and taking control of my health again! I think one of the keys for me is to go slowly, maintain consistent positive habits and really understand the why, how to make better decisions daily. Perhaps mediation at night as well as morning? Maybe I need notes on the fridge? I think I need more time to let this all set in still, but the main thing is I need to make changes, and the changes cannot wait, the changes need to be made now and today!
