The Mystic Pumpkin

11/21/2025

✨ “the ones God still watches” ✨

There are people who fear God so deeply,
they feel it burning in their chest
every time they slip. 🔥

They know He sees everything,
but somehow it’s the secrets..
He sees the clearest. 👁️

The rituals nobody talks about.
The pills counted in the dark.. 💊
The dreams where the old craving shows up, like a ghost from another life 🫥
The moments where they reach for the thing they’re trying to quit until something pulls them awake..
Heart pounding..
Like God whispered..
Not tonight.
I’m not letting you fall ✋✨

They walk through mornings with a stone in their chest …🪨
Not because they don’t love God,
But because they do
Deeply.
Painfully.
Honestly. 😔

They wonder why fear of God isn’t enough??
Why the blessings aren’t enough??🌙
Why the people they love aren’t enough?? ❤️

But addiction speaks its own language…
It knows every memory..
Every wound.
Every weak spot.
Whispering like an old lover from inside the bones.. 🥀

Some people love God with all they have.. 🤲🏻
& still feel the pull.
Still wrestle.
Still break.
Still stand back up.

They pray for strength..
Through shaking hands.🤲💔
Through long nights. 🌑
Through triggers that come swinging without warning ⚡

They repent, again & again…
Hoping God sees the sincerity..
behind the trembling.. 😪

They aren’t faithless.
They aren’t heartless.
They aren’t choosing the drug over God.

They’re choosing to try again,
over & over..
Even when the world calls them hopeless..🌊🌊

& the truth no one likes to say out loud is this:

Some of the most beautiful God fearing souls…🌟
Are the ones on their knees,
Not in perfect prayer.
But at rock bottom..
Begging God to hold them. 🤲🏻
Begging God to see them. 👁️
Begging God to give them one more hour of strength.. 🕯️

Maybe God loves them harder,
because their battle is heavier.
Maybe their repentance is real…
Because they keep coming back.
Instead of running away…

God has not abandoned them.
Not in their darkest rooms. 🌑
Not in their shaking.
Not in their secrets.

He sees the addict,
& still sees His child. 🕊️

& that, is why we survive.

- The Sacred Loaf 🍞 x - TMP ✨🎃

11/14/2025

I don’t understand this new trend of banning sleepovers.
Like… some of my best childhood memories came from sleepovers.
Little girls need those nights where they whisper secrets under blankets, do their nails at 2AM & laugh until their stomach hurts.. ✨💅🏻💖
The boys had their video game marathons, Dorito fingers, wrestling on the floor & pretending they weren’t scared of the basement… 🤼🎮💙

I still remember this night when me & my two besties camped in my yard.
We had our little tent, blankets galore, an air mattress, snacks, the TV/VCR combo strung with the extension cord to the house, our flashlights… 🏕️🍬🔦

A tiny kitten wandered into our tent & curled up with us for a couple hours like we were its family.
It felt magical, like the universe tucked us in… 🐈‍⬛✨

But it wasn’t just camping.
It was the silly stuff too..
Like the night with one friend, when we watched Finding Nemo & had to keep it a secret so we didn’t ruin her birthday sleepover theme the next weekend.. 🐠
We were sworn to silence like nine year old FBI agents! 🥸💼🤣

That’s what sleepovers give kids
Magic ✨
Trust 🤍
Friendship 👯‍♀️
Memories that soften your whole life. 🥹

Protect your kids yes
Use judgement yes
But taking away sleepovers completely… it just feels cruel. Childhood deserves softness. Childhood deserves freedom. Childhood deserves tents in the yard & tiny kittens who choose your lap! 🥺

I couldn’t take that away from my future kids..
Not when I know how much those nights shaped me, & the friendships I still have today. 💞

11/11/2025

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'Savanna' in 14k Yellow Gold with Purple Turquiose ✨️

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11/11/2025

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11/11/2025

Today I’m remembering all who’ve lost their lives to war… 😔 the soldiers, the widows, the civilians & the children alike.

I carry deep respect for those who served to give me the freedoms my country has, but I don’t believe they fought for a world where truth is censored, where youth are crushed by debt before their life begins, or where elders can’t afford to rest after a lifetime of giving.

They didn’t fight for silence in the face of injustice, or for compassion to be branded as controversy.

Freedom should mean the right to live, to speak, to dream! ⛅️
Without fear, without hunger, without bombs falling on homes half a world away…

Our forefathers didn’t die for a country that turns away from suffering.
They died hoping we would never forget our shared humanity!

To truly honor Remembrance Day, we must remember not only the dead, but the living still praying to survive. 🤍

🌹 May peace be for everyone, everywhere.
May mercy find those who suffer, & may justice rise where it’s been buried.
May the souls of the departed rest in eternal light, & may the living be guided by grace to protect one another.

In the name of love, compassion, & the God who weeps for His children,
God bless us all.
Amen 🙏🏻

- The Sacred Loaf 🍞 x The Mystic Pumpkin 🎃

🌹 ❤️

11/11/2025

My Brother, My Gaza 🤍

There’s a war that doesn’t make the news.
A siege that lives in the walls I grew up in.
The smoke isn’t from bombs.
But from broken promises & painkillers ground into dust.

Every day I try to rebuild…
By stacking small moments of calm like bricks around my heart.
While another storm tears through the door & the air fills with old ghosts again.

He isn’t the enemy, but peace never stays long where he stands.

Still, somewhere under his rubble, I keep looking for peace, I keep looking for him.
& when I find him, he’s bruised & broken all over again, & so am I.

But I still believe one day that his ceasefire will come.
The war inside him will grow quiet, & he’ll feel sunlight again, he’ll feel love that stays, warmth that doesn’t fade.

Inshallah may he find a home within himself that no drug can wash away.

Ameen 🤍

- The Sacred Loaf
The Sacred Loaf

11/10/2025

The more yarn I acquire, the less powerful I become 🫠
& the more disorganized I get trying to start 9 projects before Christmas 🎄🧶

11/10/2025

The more beads I acquire, the more powerful I become !! 🙂‍↕️
Mwuuahahahaha 😇

11/10/2025

I wrote a boooookkkkkkk!!!!! 📚😍
My first ever!! ☺️💕💕

For a long time, I thought I had to choose between my roots & my rebirth, between rosaries & dhikr beads, between pews & prayer rugs.

But maybe faith isn’t meant to divide us. Maybe it’s just different ways of saying the same love. 💗

This is a small project from my heart to yours; a devotional booklet that weaves together Catholic & Islamic reflections, shared prayers, & the everyday language of faith.

For anyone learning to speak peace in two languages.
☪️🌿 In the Name of the Same God

🍞 The Sacred Loaf
🎃 The Mystic Pumpkin

✨ “In the Name of the Same God”
A gentle bridge between two languages of faith.

A small devotional booklet by Chantal Palmer
from The Sacred Loaf 🍞 & The Mystic Pumpkin 🎃

🌿 Chapters Include:
1. The Language of Faith:
learning the words that mean the same thing twice.
2. Speaking with Heart:
greetings that carry peace.
3. The Rhythm of Worship:
where prayer meets rhythm.
4. Mercy, Trust & Return:
the language of healing.
5. Life & Blessings:
everyday holiness.
6. Knowledge & Legacy:
the wisdom we keep.

🌸 Excerpt (from Chapter 1)

“I grew up hearing ‘Thanks be to God’ in church pews,
& now I whisper ‘Alhamdulillah’ in prayer. It’s the same gratitude, the same breath, just spoken through two different windows of light.”

☪️🌿 In the name of the same God.

If you’d like a little preview before it’s published, let me know! I would love to share a few pages. 💌

The Sacred Loaf 🍞

11/03/2025

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11/03/2025

11/03/2025

💖 Update:

Dad’s no longer in the hospital!! Alhamdulillah! Now it’s all about rest, recovery, & patience ❤️‍🩹

If anyone would like to help him out during recovery, one thing that would mean the world is some home-cooked meals 🍲
Standing to cook is really difficult for him right now, so I’m trying to keep him resting as much as possible.
I can even come pick meals up from you to bring to him 💖

Thank you again for all the love, prayers & kindness, it truly keeps us going 🕊️

💖Dad Update:
Dad’s back in the hospital.. after a bit of a mishap. Thankfully there’s no new surgery needed, but he did end up with a badly broken rib & a lot of pain. We’re just taking things one day at a time right now.
I’m sure he’d really appreciate a friendly visit or two!
He always lights up when people stop by, maybe being him a snack and a coffee ☕️
Gofundme still open since il be going to and from the hospital again and care giving, while on sick leave myself. Thanks everyone for your prayers & support 🩵

ِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيمِ
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