04/28/2026
I had a very heavy weekend. I can feel it was a big release, even if I don’t fully understand what was moving through me.
I only started to feel a little lighter last night.
This morning, I woke up early and chose to meditate—just to ground myself and begin the day with intention.
Later, I sat down with my coffee and bagel, and something interesting happened. I became aware of my thoughts… not on purpose, but in a way that felt like a gift.
I noticed the pull to grab my phone—to start a list, to be productive, to do something. But I resisted.
Instead, I just sat there.
My eyes landed on my daughter’s cleats and football bag, and my first thought was, “I wish she would put those away.”
But then I caught it.
Those cleats and that bag aren’t good or bad… they just are. The only meaning they hold is the meaning I give them. So in that moment, I chose something different—I chose to love them. And just like that, the thought passed.
Then I looked out the window at my neighbour’s lawn—green, neat, perfectly fine—and immediately thought, “I should take care of my lawn soon.”
And that’s when it clicked.
I am so deeply programmed to see everything as something that needs to be done.
A task. A responsibility. A “should.”
Whether it’s a to-do list, my kids’ things, or even my yard… my mind is constantly trying to turn life into work, even when I am "relaxing" and enjoying my coffee.
So I paused and told myself,
“I am safe just sitting here. I don’t need to do anything. I don’t need to judge anything. I don’t need to ‘should’ all over myself.”
And I felt it—my nervous system softening. Relaxing. Letting go, just a little more.
If my thoughts help create my reality, then I don’t want to keep feeding the constant need to do or fix or perfect everything—even in the smallest moments.
I want to practice being.
Because I’m not a human doing… I’m a human being.
And the more I stop feeding those “doing” thoughts, the less power they have over my life.
Remember—real change doesn’t always come from big, dramatic moments.
It comes from these small shifts. These quiet realizations. These tiny moments of awareness.
That’s what creates lasting change.