07/29/2025
The Tension of Leadership and Vulnerability
(Sharing my pause)
Note: Selah in Saskatoon is now closing and released my team in that location. Selah Treatment Center (not-for-profit is pausing). Selah Counselling in Woodstock is still open and smaller.
Selah Treatment Center
Selah Counselling, Mediation & Training Center
Iāve been sitting with the tension that so many leaders wrestle with. How to lead with both strength and vulnerability. We live in a time where some leaders project images of polished perfection, while others share so openly that their humanity can feel uncontained. Somewhere in between is a space Iāve been trying to find. It is a place where professionalism meets authentic, embodied leadership.
The truth is, thereās no formula for getting this balance exactly right. Vulnerability is not about perfect timing or packaging. Itās a posture. One that recognizes the power of being human while honouring the responsibility of leadership. And thatās hard. Because how someone receives our vulnerability often says more about their experience than it does about our intent.
Recently, I recorded a video, but after some thoughtful feedback, I deleted it. Maybe it was too raw, too real. But hereās the truth Iām still committed to: I want to lead in a way that reflects my humanity. I donāt want to be messy without boundaries, but to be honest, and to show that healing and leadership can coexist. There is also seasons where stepping back and pausing is restorative.
Over the past year, Iāve taken a significant step back to care for myself. Itās something Iāve encouraged my clients to do countless times, but living it out personally has required a different kind of courage and capacity. This season has demanded deep reflection and painful decisions. But I believe leadership is not about pushing through at all costs. Itās about pausing when needed, reevaluating, and tending to the parts of us that can no longer be ignored.
So, here is my heart, shared with intention and integrity.
I have made the incredibly difficult decision to close our Saskatoon location. And perhaps even more tender, Iāve decided to place Selah Treatment Center, our not-for-profit charitable organization, on pause for now. This decision did not come lightly. Selah has always been about reaching those who often fall through the cracks of care due to financial limitations. That vision is still alive in me. But building and sustaining a not-for-profit takes enormous energy, trust, credibility, and presence, and right now, I need to redirect those things toward my own healing.
For the time being, I will be leasing our building. The mission doesnāt stop. It just takes a new form for now. Selah Counselling, Mediation, and Training Center will continue on a smaller scale in Woodstock with a small, dedicated team. I will continue to see my current clients and may take on a few new ones, but I will not be focused on growing the practice during this time. My priority is taking care of myself so I can show up fully for those I serve.
If you see a lease sign out front, please know it doesnāt mean the end. It means pause. It means healing. It means restructuring so that the future can be built differently.
This is my attempt to lead from a place that is both real and responsible. Iām not sure Iāll always get it right, but I will always aim to be honest, human, and rooted in the kind of leadership that I believe the world desperately needs.