16/10/2025
                                            When you open Tiktok sometimes, you will see all these Tarot readings and sometimes hear things like, "the tower card"😁 . When you have a bit of knowledge about tarots, you know it's not a good card or so it seems . Tower moments mean that the universe is intervening to shatter certain things in your life to teach a lesson you're refusing to learn.
When your life comes to a standstill, where you're served with or serve divorce papers or that person you've grown to love leaves you or you find out they're cheating, or you loose that job that was your source of security, or you get betrayed or loose a pregnancy after wanting to get a child for so long, or like the biblical job, you loose everything due to a "storm", that's the shattering process or a tower moment. 
Life is filled with illusions and it's our attachment to things, people and places that cement these illusions or cause them to be some sort of foundations of our lives that makes the universe intervene to shatter them because the foundations are not set in stone or authenticity. 
This is because the universe thrives on authenticity... Let me explain something about the concept of authenticity with regards to the universe... Your subconscious desires are your authentic desires, so even if you don't have what you desire but you embody that future self, the universe bends to that reality and gives you the things you desire because that's who you really are , but it's inauthentic to act humble because you don't have the things you desire yet , so it'll shatter that illusion in order to bring your desired reality. This is very counterintuitive because of what we've been taught but it's true. Anyways I'll probably create a post about authenticity with the universe for better understanding. 
After you go through this first process of shattering as established about abandonment wounds, where you loose everything, the second stage of abandonment is withdrawal. Withdrawal symptoms especially when abandoned by a romantic partner presents itself like a drug addiction. In a previous relationship where I was abandoned at my lowest by a man I'd grown to love and trust, I developed withdrawal symptoms. He was no go good for me, he's not good for any woman BTW but I craved him. I craved him so bad that I could have done anything to have him call or text me. I didn't want food or anything, I wanted him. It was an illusion of love I was craving and the destruction of the relationship happened specifically so that I should center and focus on myself. 
We have to know that no matter what our brains tell us due to imbalanced endorphins is not true, the man returning or telling you he'll not cheat again is a lie. 
Your life was still going to crash even after you had that baby and you may be faced with worse problems. 
Like in my case, we were working towards having a kid together and I wasn't earning a lot. He was also never a provider and I would have been stuck raising a child inside deep suffering. A relative told me I should be happy I dodged a bullet because my child and I would have been stuck drinking garri with salt 😂😂😂.
That breakup, especially when you're financially dependent on your partner happened because you subconsciously desired to be financially dependent from he or she. You can trick the universe to bring you your true desires, but you can't trick it to see you as humble or small when you desire to be big or known! 
The job that fired you is giving you an opportunity to create a job for yourself or get something better where you're treated better or with respect. 
But when these occur, you end up craving the very thing that might end up destroying you. 
There's this popular white stone , we call it Calabar chalk where I'm from. I used to be so addicted to eating it. As someone who studies their bodies, I noticed it helped a lot with the ulcer problems I used to have and it curbed my appetite greatly even though it prohibited me from stooling normally and it drained my blood like a vampire and also enhances fibroids and causes high inflammation. The irony is that when you're low on iron or blood shortage, your craving for this chalk is heightened and you can't help but eat more, (pica) thereby increasing the blood shortage. I had to be donated blood before surgery because the percentage in my body was lower than what is required for surgery to be successful. Thankfully, I lost the appetite for it from after surgery till date but it was a long time coming. 
That's how we look to the universe, staying in situations that are of no good to us and we get those tower moments. The universe knows if it leaves us to stay in those situations, we will rot,so it brings in the destruction or storms to clear away what is not good for us and the pain we feel during this withdrawal is just our addiction to them, not the actual loss of anything. I know it hurts to loose a pregnancy but when this happens and you accept that it may not have been the right time, you'll get a confirmation from the universe why, the process of going through it at the moment is what seems to be the most difficult but healing is possible still.
After the withdrawal process, we enter into rage. 
To be continued 
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