18/09/2024
Never, EVER be afraid to CHANGE.
Whether you are afraid to change or have changed 1000 times, this post is for you.
The fear or inability to change is based our fear of not being excepted or Loved or being exiled, judged…CANCELLED. Which ultimately is ROOTED in a LACK of self love, self acceptance, self belief or a combination of the 3. I know these all too well.
WHAT?? Daniel, YOU? Daniel with the long hair? Daniel with the braids. Daniel in the “smart people classes”. Daniel who sells the CD’s. Daniel….Yea, all those versions of ME. Each of those identities fell short of fully expressing ME. And when they no longer served or existed, I had to find a new version of SELF to believe in.
But Daniel, if you’ve changed this much, how can you be afraid of changing? Great question. Let’s dig in.
The idea of changing used to bring up so much anxiety but not in the way you may think. Changing schools, changing hair styles, changing careers, changing partners. These situations came somewhat easy to me because they happened over time, somewhat slowly and were based in my ability to control a situation. Therefore, they didn't shock my system.
What scared the sh*t out of me though, was the RAPID change, the SUDDEN shifts, the do it or die type of changes. These moments where absolutely uncomfortable! Why - because I was no longer in control. These changes weren't up to me. They were forced by a situation, a circumstance...something I HAD to respond (or react) to in the moment. AND to be honest, these have been the moments were I grew the most.
For instance, losing a parent or grand parent suddenly…that s**t F*CKed me up!! This is something I could never prepare for, even if I knew it could or would happen. And after such a heavy loss, I became afraid to change because it change was so painful. I became more stubborn and stuck in my ways, unable to accept my own evolution. I would try even harder to control my circumstances, over thinking, plotting, planning and sometimes lying, hiding, and numbing. But this NEVER worked and almost always made things worst.
Ask me about the time I tried to move my family into an intentional community here in Costa Rica, put all my money (savings, investments, etc) into a piece of property and lost it all...just to "save" myself from what was happening in the world in 2020.
Needless to say, the lessons have been immense, humbling to say the least. AND who I have become because of these things is undeniable, yet the greater the power, the greater the responsibility. I have learned who I am AND who I am not.
And so here I am today, going through another CHANGE/SHIFT that is SUPER uncomfortable because I'm no longer in control. I’ve given it all over to God, Source, the Most High, Higher Self. Anybody relate?
Check out that photo below. What if the version of me today could speak to the previous version of me?
I would simply say, "Keep going. Everything is working out for you. You may not be able to see it yet, but Trust me, it's True. The pain you will experienced will prepare you for your life ahead. Your successes may feel like your greatest blessings BUT it’s actually your failures that show you the TRUTH and when to build TRUST. Let your failures be a wake up call and a reminder to pay attention to a deeper calling within you. Your SOUL is calling.”
Tonight, I sit under this full moon here in Costa Rica, while my son Lyran sleeps peacefully in bed. Opening my Soul up to you by simply saying, "I am here." We are no different than one another... we are human beings on a path discovering daily why we are here. While I don't know the full answer, and maybe I never will, what has revealed itself in the last few days (thanks Full Moon) is very clear to me.
The LIGHT that is within has started to crack me open. It is illuminating my shadows - the insecurity, the shame and guilt, the lack of self belief, the doubtful voice within the mind. And, this same light has also given me the ability to speak truth to power, share authentically, and embody both vulnerability and courage, simultaneously.
If you are still reading this, we are def family. Thank you for listening, observing, witnessing, and supporting this evolution.
Secondly, I want to invite you to a sound healing I am leading this Sunday 9/22 in the afternoon. A few people have already confirmed (link coming soon). If this is of interest to you, respond below with the word “VIBE” and I’ll make sure you get the invite link. There is no cost, yet the energy being shared is priceless. So come ready to receive, to relax, to watch yourself SHIFT through sound frequencies.
The intention is to nourish your heart, assist you to relax the mind, and sooth any stress, anxiety or restlessness within.
I love ya’ll. I appreciate ya’ll. I wouldn’t be me, without you. Let’s go!
