31/12/2025
Do you find yourself reflecting on your life as the new year approaches? I don’t know about you, but Auld Lang Syne always makes me reminiscent of the past.
As the clock hits midnight on New Year’s Eve it will make it just over 5 months of living my own real life nightmare. Souni was struck by a huge wildfire which saw my husband and I, a number of neighbours and friends lose part of, or everything they have worked so hard for. Houses, personal possessions, pets, health, lives, memories and so on - gone! I can’t be silent on this. It will haunt me forever. In the space of 12 hours I went from being happy having broken up for the summer holidays spending two lovely weeks hosting my best friend and then getting excited about my next visitors arriving, to being catapulted into a role of trying to absorb the devastation around me and trying to hold us all together and sort through a sea of hurt. I got lost in it. I got lost in the unimaginable pain and fear while trying to navigate something no one should ever experience. We had become a community of grievers and there remains not a thing that feels untouched by this tragedy, family, friendships, health, the environment- everything. It has changed all of it! It’s not like any other loss I have experienced before. It’s always hard to lose a loved one, but in this way the pain is completely different and almost indescribable - every loss matters.
So to anyone reading this, If you are feeling down or depressed at all, if you are feeling like this life is too hard for you, if you feel like you have a burden you just can’t escape, if you have a problem in your life you are struggling to deal with, please seek help. If you just talk about it with one person I promise the load you are bearing will lighten. There is a way out. I know there is. Just imagine your life in a years time. It could be so different. There is so much to live for. Time doesn’t heal this hurt - it’s what you do within that time which will give you the help you need.
Perhaps you’re thinking about relationships that didn’t end the way you wanted, or maybe you feel regret over things you wish would have ended differently, better or more.
The problem with regret is that it keeps you out of the moment and it robs you of joy. Regretting things you wish you’d said or done can stay with you for a long time, and limit your capacity for happiness. Sadly, it can impact your current and future relationships as well.