19/01/2025
Healing is not what we think it is. I’ve always tried to explain this, in my practice. We imagine soft landings and gentle resolutions, but real healing is raw and unrelenting. It is messy and painful. And it often feels impossible, just before it becomes transformative.
This truth can be seen in the photo I’m sharing here today. This is me right now. I’ve kept it in black and white, to slightly filter the unpleasant sight. But what you see is not damage. It is renewal. The old, damaged skin is shedding, making way for something new.
My hands, my tools for work and connection, are forcing me to slow down. I’ve had to hold back from changing, bathing and holding my 15-month-old daughter. I cannot guide and treat my clients. Just when I thought the situation had peaked, I also found myself in first aid, with a severe case of gastroenteritis. It feels as though everything is rising to the surface at once, testing my patience, my hope, and my strength.
And yet, I’m not suffering anymore. The worst of the pain is behind me, and now, it’s about surrender. What remains is the call to trust and nurture. I know it is not an ending. It is a becoming.
Healing isn’t linear. It doesn’t look or feel graceful. It’s a spiral that takes us deeper than we think we can go. It breaks us open, and reveals what we’re truly made of. It challenges us to let go… not just of the pain, but of the person we were before it all began. It pushes us out of comfort and into truth. It asks us to endure the discomfort of stepping into something unfamiliar. And that is where the gift lies.
They say it is always darkest before dawn, and I know this to be true. The moments before healing fully blooms are often the hardest. The temptation to give up grows louder. But dawn always comes.
So, if you are in the depths of it and everything feels like too much, know this: you are closer than you think. Trust the process.
To those walking a similar path, I see you. Whether you have shared your healing journey with me, or even if we have never met before, I feel your struggle, your courage and your strength. I am holding space for you and sending energy of trust and love.
You are not alone 🖤✨
